sarah dow

i was in love with someone and they totally broke my heart…more like ripped it out but lets not go there. I’m still in love with them and they regret doing it, but they are with someone else… and they dont love them. i been hurt so many times them but i cant stop loving them, when i see them both together it hurts so much and they dont understand that. what makes it worse is that they are both my friends. so i hide how i feel..getting more sad everyday. i’m weaker than i was, i dont feel as though i have a heart anymore and i cant enjoy myself, i feel the only way i can find myself again is in them, they still wanna be with me, its just so hard seeing them together. i dunno how much longer i can hold on to that small piece i have of them. i feel as though i’m walking on very thin ice and if i do even the smallest thing wrong it’ll be all over again and i cant let that happen. Can anyone help?

i’ve currently been for 4 job interviews and have got no where its starting to get me because my mum has put loads of pressure on me to get one. i need one to fund my studying at uni and to have extra money. my theory is that someone is always better, but i’m determined not to let it get me down, i been to a job fair last week and got lots of applications and some for christmas work hopefully i’ll be able to get a job by then thats my aim.

You taste what you’re made of
You might bend till you break
Cause it’s all you can take.
On your knees you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands
Shake it off
Then you stand
never stop trying, cos you’ll get there eventually

To love someone with all you heart truthfully is hard to, for me my heart knew before i did, i didn’t realise until a while after i was with them that i truely loved them. I first thought it was just a weird feeling and that it would go away like similar feelings before, but it got stronger and just felt so right. Good tip never rush love, its supposed to be a natural thing so never force it on yourself or another, if its true love from the deepest of your heart, it will let you know when you’re ready. Never let your head get in the way neither, think with your heart, not your head, if you at all understand that.

Once you find that special person to share your heart with, they become your heart so look after them and never let them go because it would be hell without them in your life. Its the best thing you could ever feel EVER! never look back, treaure it forever. There name then is written all over your heart.

So i say go for it my friend and i hope this has helped you!

I’d like to share with you a quote from my favourtie book.. the notebook about how someone felt because i feel it means alot.

“I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who’s ever lived: I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.”