ThursdaysChild

I’m married and I keep meaning to have sex with my husband, but when it’s finally “time” to do the deed I am too tired or I’m just not in the mood. Or he’s asleep. Or something. I want to have a healthy sex life damnit.

I yell too much. Once I get started it’s like I work myself up and can’t stop. I want to learn to stop myself.

Every once in a while I get on a health kick. I start an exercise routine, I take my vitamins, I don’t drink or smoke, and I eat only wholesome and nutritious foods. I keep this up for anywhere from 1 day to 3 months and then I crap out. Something happens-either stress, injury, a holiday, and I fall off my wagon, stop exercising, start eating whatever crap I want, start bumming cigarettes and drinking on a regular basis. I don’t want to do it this time. I truly feel better when I stick to a healthy lifestyle-both physically and mentally. I have more energy, more good moods and I feel good about myself. Like I’m finally getting my stuff together. Well, It’s February 1st and for the past month I have been awesome. But now school has started (my MA), my son’s been stressing me out over HIS school and I got into a huge row with my husband. I missed gym once this week and ate some ice cream. I don’t want to crap out this time though! I’m gonna go to the gym tonight and eat better today. I promise.