Tiisi




I'm doing 18 things
 

Tiisi's Life List

  1. 1. feed the beast in me and give her room to roam
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    1 person
  2. 2. Write things that make me happy, daily
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    19 people
  3. 3. admit what I really want
    70 entries . 146 cheers
    38 people
  4. 4. create an outer style that is a true reflection of me
    19 entries . 83 cheers
    11 people
  5. 5. abandon all of my goals and just live
    16 entries . 81 cheers
    8 people
  6. 6.
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    0 people
  7. 7. support my parents with love, respect, patience, and humor
    28 entries . 54 cheers
    3 people
  8. 8. develop my intuition
    6 entries . 35 cheers
    36 people
  9. 9. accept and prepare for fatigue and other symptoms
    10 entries . 12 cheers
    1 person
  10. 10. write a (sloppy, half-formed if need be) poem every day (or so) during November 2009
    4 entries . 1 cheer
    4 people
  11. 11. Drop, push and launch gummy bears at Simon (Whyowhy) on his November 8th Birthday
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    30 people
  12. 12. Try EMDR and see if it works
    8 entries . 4 cheers
    2 people
  13. 13. List things I would do if I had the time (and hope it will inspire me to find the time to do some of them!)
    3 entries . 17 cheers
    5 people
  14. 14. Create a goal to support Joey (If Your Gonna Scream, Scream With Me) so he knows that we are there for him in this very diffcicult time.
    2 entries . 4 cheers
    5 people
  15. 15. Let's Clean Together
    2 entries . 4 cheers
    24 people
  16. 16. Give Brightthunder lots of love and support during her cancer treatments
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    29 people
  17. 17. Keep an exercise gournal
    38 entries . 11 cheers
    4 people
  18. 18. Zonino! Celebrate with LL and Fishboy as they live together finally!
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    26 people

How I did it
How to get my maid-of-honor dress altered
It took me
1 week
It made me
clothed


How to write a (sloppy, half-formed if need be) poem every day (or so) during June 2009
It took me
30 days
It made me
astonished


How to do napowrimo 2009 (a poem a day during April)
It took me
30 days
It made me
grateful


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write a (sloppy, half-formed if need be) poem every day (or so) during November 2009 (read all 4 entries…)
Every Day 1 day ago

You are tired. You sit
Next to a man in chain
Mail on the train, not
Noticing until he begins
His barbaric yawp, hot in
Your left ear. You notice,
Peripherally, the red tint
Of his bleary blue eyes,
Then the shaking knee
Of the man in the opposite
Seat and look up to find the
Love of your life trying not
To laugh out loud. Not that
You know it then, though
Some part of you wakes up
When he executes the worst
Fake cough ever to cover his
Giggles and you say, at the
Top of your usually timid
Lungs, “BLESS YOU!”
These things happen
Every day.



Try EMDR and see if it works (read all 8 entries…)
It must work, as my 1 day ago

friend’s wedding, at her house in NC, turned out to be about three blocks from where my late husband and I used to live, the site of three of the four trauma triggers I desensitized through EMDR. I felt nothing other than a little amusement that it should be so close. That’s pretty spectacular, in my book.

In my last two sessions, we worked on the trigger of paying off debt. LOTS of stuff surfaced, from difficulty giving him up as truly gone to feeling lonely and unloved because I did it by myself.

I don’t have any PTSD symptoms currently and am feeling happier and more relaxed than I have in a very long time. I’m sleeping well, barely worrying and rolling around in love like a cat in catnip. I’m seeing the therapist next week to make sure everything “held” and I’ll see her again after that in six months for the same reason. I’m so glad I spent the money and took the time to do this.



Zonino! Celebrate with LL and Fishboy as they live together finally!
This is the kind of love 1 day ago

that makes roses bloom in snow. It’s a joy to watch these two interact and share their playful, deep, true love. Like everyone else, I’m beyond thrilled that they get to be together after way too long caught in bureaucracy.



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