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New year. :) Basically all the unfinished stuff is unimportant now. From last year. The homework is already PILING. I can’t believe I actually liked school. Well, I still like it, but I feel unchallenged and bored. I never even liked challenges… I scare myself. (NOT a nerd, people)
Anyhoo, teacher said I should try this enrichment maths program but I was like “No.†I’m too lazy to do the work I already have. I wanted to though. I’ve quit nearly all my extra-curricular activities because I wanted to have a restful year and I didn’t like them anymore. It wasn’t til later when I looked at this goal again this I realised I’ve been avoiding it. Instead of finishing stuff I’ve been mentally deleting it off the “To do†list by writing it out altogether. Whew, that’s a bothering thought for me.
I do try though. I’ve been told I’m a perfectionist. I disagree but perhaps I am. Everyone has standards, right? A thought was maybe my standards get in the way of COMPLETING things. I start but change my mind and start AGAIN. That can be a good thing until I start doing it over and over. Changing the whole concept of what I’m doing repeatedly without going far. I have so many ideas! Tooooo many. Creativity much?
Ah well. At least I’m honest with myself. :) I might lower my standards just a tad to get things done. I really don’t want to but I’ve always been the “slow workerâ€. It’s such a boring title..
PS: Whew! Writing this down is like, therapy. Seriously… It helps me get on track even if I rattle on a bit… too much. meh
