TimeForChange23

was down to 157-58
i have a shitty analog fucking scales.. so it sucks. and thats what it says..yesterday i ate a lil shitty cuz my boyfriend is down and he has a sweet tooth..ya so i may have put on a few i hope not tought

Yes I will, I Beleive i can do it..and i will not let my self fail.. i will not take no for an answer …. no is not an option..i have faith in me, im doing ok i guess..today i have not binged @ all and not ate anything.. but coffee and fluids.. tommorow morning.. im going to eat a bowl of oatmeal.. when i get up.. and then tommow i will eat popcorn when me and my hubby go to the movies.. that will be great…i miss him so much. i catch my self .. wareing his sweaters.. and smelling his dirty shirts.. that smell like him.. i love him so much.. any who .. i love me and my life .. right now any who.. i need to find a fucking job

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i went the other day .. with 37 hours with out eating..which by the way made me lose like 2 lbs… then of course.. half way throught the second day..i fuck up.. and piged out on wheat thins.. yup.. wheat thins.. and cottage cheese.. like shit loads.. and then.. figured.. i already fucked it all up .. might as well go fuck it up even worse. this is how i think by the way .. went to Dariy Queen.. go a medium.. Blizzard.. with not just one flavor.. not i have to be a huge cow.. and get cookies and cream and .. kit kat.. ate the whole thing..gained.. my 2 lbs back, back in the 60’s …. regular chips and vinager…then the next day was doing good .. then half way through the day i think to my self.. who am i kidding.. i have always been fat… and i always will .. lets go make it worse.. .. and go to Mickey D’s.. and get a double Big Mac..with bacon.. and X tra big mac sause.. i anint even going on the scale today fuck.. it im cleaning all Mother fucking day.. cuz im fucking useless..i have been sitting here for like 4 dayz all by my self.. staring @ my dirty ass apartment.. and not cleaning it.. and i think a dirty house makes me depressed.. i might update later this is like my Motivation diary.. took that pic last night..nasty