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play tennis
Hey guys! 7 months ago

I am a varsity tennis player and level 6.0.
For beginers I charge 30 dollars an hour, and provide balls, teaching, lesson plans, and goals for you!
For more intermediate I charge 20 an hour and provide a killer workout ..

contact me for more info! :)



lose 5 pounds (read all 4 entries…)
I just want to reinforce 7 months ago

I can do this, i can do this, I can do this, i CAN do this, i can DO this, i can do THIS, I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!! :)

all I wanted to say :) weeeeeeeeeee, maybe posting everyday will help me stay on track!!!!!!

ReMEMBER my, goallllllll, one meal, one meal, one meal… WRITE DOWN EVERYTHING. :)



Lose 30 pounds
Hi Guys! 7 months ago

Your all inspirations to me, I go online all the time to look at how other people have succeeded!! I need help, Ive broken my goal of thirty pounds down into 5 pounders! hopefully this helps that process move along.

Im coming off of an ED so be nice to me and my goals, they are silly and you’ll see me fall flat on my face but I need to get over the secrecy ED has gotten me under. I hate him… Im planning on doing this the right way! thats 1,400 -1,500 a day :o im nuts, its crazy but i need to get my metabolism back on my side!

STATS
C.w. 156.5
G.w. 125

I up for any tips, and any thing to help, :) thanks.

post you progress!!!!!! lets get through this together



lose 5 pounds (read all 4 entries…)
The Stats 7 months ago

Took me a while to take the plunge and weigh myself!
A whopping 156.5 at 9 am after breakfast (but I had a bowel movement)
So Breakfast might not have really been there… hehehe

STATS!!
Current.Weight. 156.5
Goal.Weight. 151
Ultimate.Goal.Weight 125 (hahahaha I know a joke right?)

Thirty pounds…thirty pounds…thirty pounds!!!!! :) doo it tooo itt!

My goal of this week is to eat one meal solely by it self, I have weird eating habits from having an ED so bear with my silly little goals.

on the menu today!
10-11…Yogurt&granola
@1-2…Chicken wrap
@4.. cheese stick (and fruit if really hungry)
@6-7 stir fry and chicken.

This week, I will also target, 1500 calories a day, with small meals through out. And judging on my next weigh in, we will switch calories or something, I will let the number on the scale guide my eating, but not define it! :)



stop over eating
help 7 months ago

yup



lose 5 pounds (read all 4 entries…)
YAY 7 months ago

today is helping me!! I feel happy, about to go make a connection with god!
VV your post down there, im interested to see if that works for you, I’m so scared of crash diets now, they send a red flag into my head but im not discouraging you! Just excited to see if it works:) please tell us!

-I will weigh myself after prom, and see my weight, then chart it here. Im going to try to eat about 1500 calories a day and lose weight! tough feat for a girl who used to crash diet! :)



Pray in the morning when I wake up, and in the evening when I lay to sleep
Going to start tonight! 7 months ago

Making it a goal, to even say anything like “Thank you God” Have a spiritual connection with him and Love it



lose 5 pounds (read all 4 entries…)
Day UNO! I wanna lose 5 poounds 5 times! lets see how this works. 7 months ago

Reset my metabolism… pretty sure? not quite, we shall see…
Going to weigh tomorrow and not let it affect my day
Ill post my stats and you can all see how fat i am (I have a lot of muscle…. excuses :P) Oh well I still love myself, and thats my promise! Alrighhhty thhhen,
Tomorrow, wake up! first thing, shower, then weigh, run breakfast and my zero period! going to stop thinking about it, ive been letting it consume me, must get over tummy pudge, I lock myself from the world.
Anyways, going to stick to, 5 meals a day all 300 calories every 2-3 hours! Make them healthy choices! And stop trying to pair foods, if i have to pair a food (which i dont, but only realize this when I start eating, and have that emotional bond that I want to have it, even though I really dont want it, why cant I just throw food away? Dad screeeeeems at me for it, I blame him! annyways. ya that plan, then the 30 (this is for prom) vegetarian diet no sodas. and eating very clean. If you have a mess up meal, then suck it up. and add it to your calories, itll be okay

Bassically follow five small meals a day, at 30 minute workouts and running. And trying to make thos meals the healthiest, and we will see the pounds burnn baby buurn!



get really skinny (read all 2 entries…)
Just keep swimming, just keep swimming 7 months ago

I have Dorys motto in my head, Just keep swimmming, usuing it for myself as. Just keep going, just keep trying just keep doing it! Former yo-yo dieter that that went to binge eater here! Going to separate myself from the emotions I lock into food.. HONESTLY. It’s hard in the morning cause all I want to do it wake up, and go directly back to bed, but I comfort myself, by making breakfast and eating it in my warm bed watching the news. JUST KEEP SWIMMING JUST KEEP TRYING, going to wake up and jump straight into the shower, FIRST thing, I need someone to help remind me this, I’ll enlist my dad, or mom.

So do you think you can restart your metabolism? I think im on the road to, I fricked it up after a long battle with the scale, yo yo diets, and binges… This time its real, this time I have a plan. Ive never been able to stick with something for more than a week or two, my plan is laid out for a month, Im calling it my ONE MONTH CHALLENGE, and im going to take it all step by step, I have rpom and graduation during this month so can you balme me for fitting in the 3 day diet schedule? Didn’t think so! :) Anyways, I’m challenging myself to stick to my plan, for ONE month, im thinking it will reset my ways and help me perservere through this binging, because other than the bingeing I eat fine! Its my ONLY downfalllll.. JUST KEEP SWIMMING, JUST KEEP TRYING, JUST KEEP GOING.

Going to rid of my sadness to (not calling it depression cause thats a gay scientific term and sounds negative) Im going to love my body shape no matter what, and watch the pounds slide off healthy and easy, instead of going on crazy diets to lose 20 pounds, im going to stick it out over the long haul because thats what is needed, you are fat because you eat a certain way, For me, dieting bingeing and all or nothing thinkning, this month challenge im resetting the clocks on my ticker. And then making life decisions in a different way that dissasociates food with feelings, so I can take it or leave it.



Learn to play the drums
Ever since Josie And the Pussy Cats 7 months ago

Okay tara reid is a MESS now, (still love her) but how fricken hott was it when she rocked those drums? Don’t even know if it was real don’t think I care. Hahaha can’t wait to learn



get really skinny (read all 2 entries…)
What Im going to do, to get really skinny. 7 months ago

Stop my, extreme dieting to binge eating circle of DEATH!
I will do this by…
1. Having No More “F**K it days, food, or bites
Don’t know if you’ve done this, but it’s the deadly ALL OR NOTHING approach, I think it’s my biggest downfall. Because I can stay on a diet for about 7 days, and then on the next I binge like crazy, some times its a day, or two, or three, then I get back on. But during these days, there is no grey area. When I am Having a binge eating day, believe you me, I make NO attempt at eating healthy or working out! But on my good days, I do not have one thing out of my diet. Its a bad cycle I have gotten into.
2. No More Extreme Dieting
If this works for you, then more power to you, it doesn’t work for me (Obviously)
3. Eat Every 2-3 Hours
4. Make concsious decisions at EVERY meal and take it one bite at a time.



volunteer in Africa
What did you use? 7 months ago

Anyone used Volunteer Africa, the organization?



Join the Peace Corps
Can anyobody 7 months ago

Please tell me their experience and what to expect, also is it a risk, dangerous, fun?

Whats a day in the life over there and what group did you go with? What do you think the best route to take is on this?

And finally if you could do it over, would you change anything to make yourself more prepared?



have a BMI of 20
Any Success 7 months ago

Share some tips?



strengthen my Faith
I LOVE GOD!! 7 months ago

A new christian, but not a born again (YET!) Im getting there I swear it, I used to try and reason with faith, you know the questions in your head. HE created all THIS!? (And it’s all messed up anyway) Or I always wondered how a christian VERY strong in their faith could look at anothers faith and say “You’re wrong” Or vice versa. But I started to read the bible, and I luckily sought the advice of a friend whose strong in her faith, and through that net I was able to learn about the bible, and god.

It was amazing to find that it did all tie in, and that when I read proverbs I agreed with what was being stated. I was lost at this time, and had MANY dreams that made me believe God was trying to work His way into my life, (Like a dream my father was dying and at the end I’m on his bed praying to god, or ever since I was little I would sleep walk and end up in a praying position, creepy I know)

So I was lost and I began to hear the Word, it changed me, slowly and still doing its job, at first I was a huge skeptic, and I kept asking question and was frustrated with the response I thought was so silly!! Every christian answered my hard questions with “You have to feel him” needless to say I was pissed. But I began to let my guard down, and I found him in almost everything I did, I found him in my heart, in my head, in my school books, in my dreams, on my t.v., on my radio (The t.v. and radio would go to christian channels without me touching them) and once I began to let my guard down, I swear on every thing in me I FELT HIM!!! I wanted to cry, I began to look forward to bible study, because as I was so lost in my life, it provided a safe place, everyone there was loving and caring. And it was my HEAVEN on earth.

I am still on the way to my goal of fully believing and accepting christ, although I think I am not far off. Skepticism runs into my mind a lot while reading or listening to the bible or priest. But at the end of the day HIS LOVE PREVAILS OVER ME AND HUGS ME.

I am not a crazy bible thumpin christian, and I too believed that they were all brain washed, hypocrites who looked down at everyone. But you know what, god sets his example and wants you to be perfect and follow him but the beauty is HE ALWAYS FORGIVES. Even when I did something I was ashamed of, His love was still there. It hung onto my heart and held my hand. You see God has his plan for everyone already laid out, he knows what’s in your heart, and if you are a true christian you honor what he did for you and realize that YOU ARE A SINER. Because you are, we all are, but it’s okay. The only person you answer to on judgement day is God and he knows wether you repent for your sins, or are trying to evade the unholy death sentence.

Sorry for the huge post, but I haven't been able to fully express lately my new found love. As for other religions, it's like this... Why do you believe in ANYTHING? Because it sounds right to YOU, if you read the bible and study it and don't like it FINE its not for you but if you want a strong religion, LET IT HAPPEN. I can't remember the verse but in Peter he explains that one who seeks answers for faith and God will not find them, You must have FAITH in your faith. Sounds weird I know but try it, just believe it and it comes to you, and you think HOW DID I NOT SEE THIS BEFORE?


learn french
Rossetta Stone 7 months ago

Anyone tried it? If so what are the results?



stop binge-eating
MY habits (looking for guidance, help and advice. And maybe I can do the same somehow) 7 months ago

Hi, I started dieting young I can’t even remember when it started but my dad made it known I was a chubby little girl who needed to lose weight, but me and my (on the larger side) mother turned to food. My dad would limit my eating of pop tarts in our house or nachos, but then make my older brother the same dishes in mass quantities encouraging him to eat up! I didn’t understand the metabolism thing between boys and girls there so needless to say I think that and more things like my mom leaving me have attributed to this.

So I’ve been dieting since I can remember and I will do good, GREAT, for like a week, but I cant last longer than that, and I self destruct and binge, and not like of I had two bowls of cereal, I WISH it would stop there. I eat everything in sight things I don’t even really like, but pissed I could never have them! It sucks, and I get depressed every time, I’m slowly working on getting over it but every time i mess it it only seems like I’m back at square one… HELP!!!



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