I just read the msg from bluesfan 21. There is nothing you can do to cope, you can only exist, just plod along and wait it through. Maybe I am the wrong person to give advice, as I am still plodding on. I miss him more then life is worth. I resent everyone with a dad and hate myself for doing it. My dad didn;t see me turn 18 and he didn;t see me get my a-levels, go to uni an dhe won’t see me graduate or walk me down the aisle. This is the hardest part, i wish i could be with him, I miss him so much.
Everyone says pain eases with time, this never eases, the more time that lapses is the longer I haven’t seen him and the more I miss him.
I want to find a decent guy, a guy who can take me and look after me and accept all my baggage (there’s enough of it) I had a bf who was really amazing but I moved to Uni and realised it just wouldn;t be fair to string this guy on. This however doesn’t stop me wanting and wishing I had a nice guy.
My dad died ago 5 months ago yesterday. I was 17 (18 now), he died in less then 24hrs and was in perfect health my mum was abroad and all of my other family don’t live in this country. I still had to sit my a-levels and try and live through what had happened. It was and is the worst period of my life. My mum couldn’t cope having just lost her father (my grandfather) a month previous. We never really talk about him, and I have just moved to uni, life’s shit. Can’t cope don’t know what to do or who to talk to.