I don’t eat in the morning. Yuck, the thought of food when I get up almost sends me back to bed. Actually, I don’t usually eat anything til about 2 in the afternoon. By the time I realize I haven’t eaten, I’m friggin starving. So I over-eat, and then take a nap. Bad routine.
My daughter had a speech to do on “How to _ something”. “Show em how to make a smoothie”, I said (never actually having one myself). Wha-lah! A healthy breakfast. Fruit, yogurt, milk and ice. It doesn’t even feel like breakfast, drinking it down while I check out my 43 things. I feel so much better throughout the morning, and eat a lighter lunch too. Somebody shoulda popped me on the forehead a long time ago and said “Wow! You coulda had a… smoothie”.
Tv helps me sleep. Most nights my mind won’t quit. The events of the day, the week, my daughter’s grades, bills I can’t pay, things I want but don’t have, things I have but don’t want, and even hypothetical situations and conversations that I’ll probably never have. These things keep me awake. Tv is my sleeping pill. Falling asleep to the tv is easy, mind numbing. The low voice of the narrator on Forensic Files, or a really slow movie. They’re just enough to focus my mind on that one thing, but not too much to captivate my attention and keep me awake. Last night, the first night in years, I slept with the tv off. As I expected, it took me 2 hours to fall asleep, and I was restless all night long, like I hadn’t finished my day somehow. But I focused on my breathing, and pictured beautiful, peaceful surroundings (which I kept trying to redecorate, ugghh), and finally I slept. Old habits are hard to break, but by learning to slow my thoughts, I think I’ll eventually sleep better at night, and maybe even learn to utilize that throughout my day to relieve a little stress.