I'm doing 38 things
So I’ve been thinking. How do I become who I want to be? I feel like my identity, while fully formed, could use a bit of work. I spend so little time engaged in life – and I’m not talking about externally obvious accomplishments. I want to be able to commit fully to living, instead of just muddling along and be not hindered by fear that I won’t cut it. It’s like there are little goblins grabbing at my shirttails, trying to slow me down. If they were real goblins instead of self-generated thoughts and beliefs, they’d be easier to get rid of.
I’ve met only a handful of people who I would consider to be doing this. No procrastinating, no worries that things won’t work – just trying, enjoying, learning, being. That’s what I want.
I’m not sure how to get there, except to try to pay attention to myself and recognize when the goblins are at work…so I can slay them!! Wow, that sounds kind of harsh – oh, well.
Tsill's Life List
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1. Daily: Reflect on at least 5 things for which I'm grateful (Happiness Manifesto #2)
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2. Note to self: be loving and compassionate towards myself
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3. Lie on the ground and watch the sky more often
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4. Practice Taoist Tai Chi more often
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5. buy another motorcycle
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6. Complete a sprint triathlon
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7. be content
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8. wear outrageous clothing/hairdos to bake some cookies
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9. climb more trees
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10. Quit it with illusions/delusions already!
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11. make wire jewelry
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12. only eat when I'm hungry
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13. see the beauty in everyone I meet
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14. tell myself little stories to make myself laugh
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15. eat less sugar
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16. figure out how to be one of the clean/tidy people
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17. Wear More Colours
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18. be honest to myself
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19. Do 100 Don-yus every day
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20. forgive my mom
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21. Try to remember that my attitude is a choice I make every minute of every day
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22. list 43 things I like about myself
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23. post random thoughts
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24. be more aware
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25. Roll around in a vat of chocolate
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26. Share my secret shames
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27. read all the books I own
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28. make a list of all the books I have read
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29. Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.
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30. be more social
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31. climb out from under all of my crap
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32. consistently work on my goals
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33. stop driving when I can bike or walk
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34. stop procrastinating
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35. have a goal to list all of my long term, to be accomplished in the distant future goals, so my goal list isn't so darn cluttered
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36. post things that are on my mind
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37. Live life more like Calvin & Hobbes
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38. figure out how to drive the bus that is me, instead of just letting life flow over and around me
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and it’s got to end! The sweetness is sooooo rewarding, but the energy level and mood changes suck somewhat. So starting yesterday, the only sugar I will be eating will be in the form of fruit. I already feel a little dull and tired – but (fortunately?) I haven’t given up coffee – one thing at a time.
Non-crashing energy levels here I come!
1. While biking home I passed a couple of oak trees and they had the most beautiful shiny, bright spring-green leaves. Wow!
2. And then, while biking through the experimental farm, all the cows were in the pasture by the path. So I stopped for a visit (making sure no one was around before talking to them). They make a lovely sound as they munch-munch – it’s soothing, like the sound of a stream.
3. I am grateful for exhaustion – the kind you get when you push your body, making it work just a little bit harder than it’s used to – despite protests from the old brain (saying – really you don’t have to do this – take it easy, why not have a nap instead?). Haha! So now I feel gooooooood! And wow, sleep is better when you’re pooped.
4. Yummy dinner/new recipe. Food is good – so good.
5. Things are going well – and I am grateful for that.
