Tsora

So I’m dual booting XP and Ubuntu on my desktop at home now, though I can’t think of the last time that I booted into Windows. I still have this as a goal though because, while I can do the basics, sometimes very simple things stump me, and I’m nowhere near as comfortable in the terminal as I’d like to be! But I’m learning by doing, so it’s coming along!

I did this back in October of 2006 and absolutey LOVED it. I felt refreshed, clean, healthy, and very energized while on it, which is exactly the opposite of what I expected. The only down side is that after the cleanse I fell back into letting some junk slip through in my regular eating habits, and now I feel worse. I plan to do the cleanse again at the end of January, and show more discipline after the fact!

I think, the reason I have such a problem with this, is because I’m afraid I won’t be able to reciprocate the demonstrated love as much as it is shown. The smiles, the words, the hugs, the spontaneous expressions – I’d like to have that, someday. But I’m afraid that if I do, that person will feel neglected because I am not spontaneous and I don’t demonstrate my emotions well or often.

Now to figure out a way to work on this…