I can’t take it anymore. I’m sick of putting on a smile for my friends. I hate lying to them, I just wish I was genuinely happy. I know that will never happen, but it can’t hurt to hope
Tulipstars4ever's Life List
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1. Stop cutting
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2. Stop being depressed
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3. Beat my depression
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4. be more confident
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5. run away
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6. Run away with someone
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7. get over him
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8. Be healthy physically, mentally, and emotionally
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9. leave home
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10. Write my name in wet cement
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11. Put a message in a bottle and throw it out to sea
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12. have conversations late into the night with fascinating people
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13. make more friends
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14. Make a postcard and send it to Post Secret
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15. drop 43 pennies in random places so that people can find them and feel lucky
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16. have more myspace friends
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17. Actually meet face-to-face with someone from 43 Things
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18. get a job
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19. Kiss in the rain
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20. Kiss a stranger
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21. learn to use chopsticks
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22. be skinny
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23. tone my body
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24. Lose 30 pounds
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25. fast for 10 days
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26. get in shape
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27. decorate my apartment
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28. drink only water every day for 5 days
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29. read pride and prejudice
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30. be their envy
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31. lose weight
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32. be someone's thinspo
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It’s been going pretty good lately. My arm is healing well, and my doctor didn’t notice the scars on my arm. I’m also doing a report on self-injury. It’s weird to hear all these things about it from people who have no idea what it’s like. I also found out one of my friends used to cut. I hate hearing what people think about sefinjurers though. I asked one of my friends and she said it was stupid. I asked anoher friend and she said anyone who self-injures is going to hell. It’s hard that the people saying this are some of my closest friends. I wish people understood.
Amazing book. Equally as good as the movie. It definetley made me cry. I had no idea Nicholas Sparks also wrote the book to my second favorite movie “A Walk To Remember”. I plan on reading that also. I suggest reading “The Notebook” before seeing the movie.
