caiti awesomepants

old enough to know better. too young to care.



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  1. 1. be loved
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  2. 2. roll down a hill in bubble wrap
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  3. 3. milk a cow
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  4. 4. post letters here that i would never send
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    40 people
  5. 5. learn the thriller dance
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  6. 6. post randomly
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  7. 7. clean out closet number two
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  8. 8. list 100 random things about myself
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  9. 9. watch "The Secret"
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  10. 10. Have a new Fun Scavenger Hunt every month
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  11. 11. play the lyric game [that jamie rocks at] right here
    2 team members . 131 entries . 11 cheers
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  12. 12. watch The Wizard of Oz while playing Dark Side of the Moon
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  13. 13. convince Matt Maldre to repost the cheer post-its
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  14. 14. read Wuthering Heights
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  15. 15. maintain [or improve] my class rank
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  16. 16. Drop, push and launch gummy bears at Simon (Whyowhy) on his November 8th Birthday
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  17. 17. Wish Anne an extraordinary beautiful birthday filled with tons of cheers, hugs and photos on November 10
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  18. 18. Wish Anne an extraordinary beautiful birthday filled with tons of cheers, hugs and photos on November 11
    8 people
  19. 19. Celebrate Flirt's birthday with chocolate, flirtinis and anything purple on Nov 11th
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  20. 20. Quote Shakespeare in Celebration of Bedhead2's Birthday November 12th
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post letters here that i would never send (read all 53 entries…)
dear - 8 hours ago

i’m so terrified of what we’re doing.

i don’t like how you compare me to her…i mean, obviously you’re going to do it. i do it, too…but can’t you just keep it to yourself ? i’m not going to be like her…in many ways. if you really think about it, that’s a pretty good thing. when you do that, it makes me feel like you had more fun with her than you’re having with me. you wanted to know why i’m so self conscious and nervous around you ? that’s it.

i hate how you ignore me unless it’s just the two of us. it makes me so self conscious. are you ashamed of me ? is there something wrong with me ? i don’t understand. i’m so confused.

i’m crazy about you. you have to know that. i’ve liked you for forever. you’re my best friend. i want this to work so badly. but i can’t help being paranoid that you’re going to back out on me…i’m scared you’re messing with me…and i think a lot of that is because i feel so pressured, even when we’re not dating. if you expect this much out of me…i’m worried that you’re just doing it to see if you can. i hate myself for thinking like that because you’re a good person, and i can’t see you doing that to anyone. but i can’t help it. i wish you’d reassure me somehow.

i’m so scared to tell you this stuff because i’m afraid that you’ll think i’m an idiot if i do. i’m scared that you’ll just say, “wtf,” and think that i’m not worth it.
but another part of me can’t see you doing that to me. you wouldn’t.

good heavens, i need to get some sleep…



play the lyric game [that jamie rocks at] right here (read all 131 entries…)
and though the news was rather sad 15 hours ago

well i just had to laugh



make a list of 100 things that make me happy. (read all 273 entries…)
273 15 hours ago
  • my three’s were hot at the scrimmage this morning.
  • i had a lovely little date last night. : )


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