UltraMel

It’s typical of me, I call for something more deeper, like the love Edward had for Bella and then I go for the first guy I can. He is a bad boy, mysterious and something for the eyes but other than that, there is nothing. Sure we’ve kissed once or twice, but he hasn’t made any effort to spend time alone or to do something special. I need help, how do I stop falling for these same guys, and how do I tell them that they are not my Edward.

Many times I have sat and thought, who am I, what do I want out of life, what do I need to do to be complete, well I am still unsure. But I know who and what I want to be and that is what I am working towards.

I just talk, I don’t withhold any thoughts. If I think it, I probably will say it. I need to stop this as most of the time it gets me into trouble. I want people to wonder what I am thinking.