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Well I humiliated myself. Over stupid high school drama.
It all started yesterday, fifth period. Gym. We were playing volleyball. When I was up to serve, I knew the score was four serving 11. So I said tha. Immediatly, the other team yells “You have three!” I got mad and started to explain how we have four but they kept cutting me off, making me angrier and angrier. It also made me louder. And then it was time to go.
Today, I walked into class and people were saying “Oh, are you going to get mad today?” and other hurtful things. This I ignored for now. When it came time for the game to start, the comments continued. I ignored this too. However, while I was waiting to be subbed in the two girls next to me started talking. The conversation went as follows with occasional glances at me and giggles from the girls:
“I am in a wonderful mood.” “Me too!” “The only thing is, is that I want to punch someone in the face.” “Me too! How about I hold her down and you punch?” and other threatening things. I decided not to say anything then I went to play. The insults continued, and I tried to retaliate, but more people jumped in. This made me even more upset. I got frustrated and had a breakdown then sat out the rest of the day. While I sat out, the ball for my team rolled over. I pushed it back and one of the girls who had threatened me earlier said in a very smart alec way “Thanks.” So I flipped her off. I already know, this was the worst thing to do and that’s where I went wrong and really overreacted. It probably made things worse.
Tomorrow, I’m thinking about apologizing but part of my ego is saying “Why apologize to someone who doesn’t care?” but the other part is saying “Apologize. You don’t have to mean it, but it will get them to stop harassing you.”
