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At a new job for the summer. I wish I had good news to report. But unfortunately the teacher in the class is a total ass (working as an aide currently). I try to be positive, try to be optimistic, but what do you do when reality is constantly disappointing? Go into denial? Become a Polyanna? Ignore it all and withdraw into Twilight melodramas and reality shows?
I feel so useless in that class. There’s 3 other aides and all they do is play cards and do sudoku puzzles. He won’t let us help the kids at all. He gives them assignments, makes them do it on their own while he’s off playing rummy, and then he comes back and berates them when they get it wrong. Today he humiliated a student by saying that he was flirting with another boy in the class and said that “it was fine if he wanted to live his alternative lifestyle, but it wasn’t appropiate for school”. Yes. This is the moron I am working with! I swear I wouldn’t believe it, if I didn’t hear it and see it with my own eyes and ears. And to top it off the kids we are working with are special needs!
I tried to help the students today with an assignment and he reprimanded me. Apparently I’m only getting paid to play cards and stare off into space. I consider myself to be very patient, but how patient do I need to be? Really? The school system is so backwards and messed up, but at what point do I just say enough is enough. I have so many other stories. Too many. And I don’t know what to do with it all.
It is beyond frustration, beyond disappointment.
