Wallace Curtis

2 months ago I moved from my hometwon (slums of napa, ca) to beautiful, hip, damp portland OR. Where I live now is nice but its not my own space. I rent an attic with a friend and space and privacy are limited. There are a total of 6 people in the house and it gets overwhelming (I am a VERY anxious guy.) I feel like I need an active intentional community, yet total privacy when I need it ( as well as volume tolerance as I am a musician.) first step is money, and then DOING IT!

I feel like I’m living life obsessed with the people (person, mostly) that I’ve lost touch with, And as I stumble in a romantic, lonely haze I look at myself losing touch with friends I’ve just made. So I moved 600 miles away to try and get closer to what I was driving away from. Its all fear, fear of judgement and rejection. It’s easier to reject. When I try to bridge a gap it works, but its like I subconciously can’t wait to disappoint everybody. I think I should try making smaller, less grandiose gestures and holding promises back… jeez can I whine!!