WaterSong79

i wish i could give u some advice on this, but i don’t feel respected enough myself. i’m 29 years old and still feel like a big kid. i never feel like people take me seriously enough and sometimes i act out just so that people will…at least, i think that’s why i’ve done some of the things i’ve done in my life that i don’t quite understand. i just wanted someone to notice me and take me seriously. crazy and silly. ...i can tell u this much. if your “friends” bitch about u behind your back they don’t really seem like very good “friends”. u don’t need that in your life. u deserve their respect. i know that you are still a teenagaer, tho, and people can do some really stupid things and act really stupid at that age…at all ages, but especially the teen years! still, if u wonder if your friends are talking badly about u, perhaps u should call them out on it… tell them that that sucks, cuz u thought they were supposed to be your “friends”! and if you are having problems with your family, surprise the hell out of them and be the bigger person and talk to them about it to. ...good luck! hang in there!

I have so much bottled up inside, and I know it’s such a habit now and it’s hard to stop. But I have so much that I want to say. When someone asks me how I feel about something, my first feeling is fear. What if I sound stupid? I haven’t always been this way. It started about ten years ago in college. I am not sure what triggered it, but I just don’t have the confidence I used to have. I remember struggling with it when the fear first came upon me then, and I really beat it for a while, but these days I still feel that fear getting in my way somtimes. Not always, but enough that I notice. I just want to feel sure of myself again. I am smart. I have always done well in school and all areas of study. What is wrong with me? I want to be proud to speak my mind. I want to be respected for my opinions, because I have so much love for the world and I want to share it. ...Argh.