I'm doing 43 things
I don’t want to get over you. I guess I could take
a sleeping pill and sleep at will and not have to
go through what I go through. I guess I should take
Prozac, right, and just smile all night at somebody new,
Somebody not too bright but sweet and kind who would
try to get you off my mind. I could leave this agony behind
which is just what I’d do if I wanted to, but I don’t
want to get over you cause I don’t want to get over love.
I could listen to my therapist, pretend you don’t exist
and not have to dream of what I dream of; I could listen
to all my friends and go out again and pretend it’s enough,
or I could make a career of being blue—I could dress
in black and read Camus, smoke clove cigarettes and drink
vermouth like I was 17 that would be a scream but I
don’t want to get over you.
Weltschmerzgirl's Life List
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1. be happy
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2. feel loved
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3. write something, anything worth reading
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4. love myself
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5. feel like having real friends
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6. Don't be so afraid to go out and have fun
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7. don't be lonely anymore
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8. find purpose in life
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9. change the world
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10. have more sex and enjoy it
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11. be accepted
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12. hug and be huged
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13. seek opportunities to smile, laugh, and have fun
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14. feel useful
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15. help someone
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16. be a good student
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17. change my life
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18. forgive and be forgiven
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19. go to see the therapist
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20. stay who I am
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21. Don't Cry So Much
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22. have more perfect moments in life
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23. Be a better friend
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24. be more social
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25. be free and openminded
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26. Live in the present
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27. write a good poem
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28. make it happen or get over the desire to
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29. be the right person instead of trying to find the right person
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30. Beat my depression
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31. be well again
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32. Inspire people to make changes in the world, instead of just unhappily accepting it as it is.
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33. see Balasevic on concert
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34. feel beautiful
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35. get over him
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36. fall in love again
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37. To live instead of exist
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38. spend more time with my nana (grandma)
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39. have a happy family
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40. start studing!
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41. be a good blogger
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42. become more independent
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43. be more positive
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Found somebody I can have sex with but I don’t want to have a relationship with. I feel comfortable with him and I’m entering all that without any pressure, it really makes me feel better about everything, but I’ve never been in a similar situation. That’s why I’m asking myself: Should I?
