I’ve already started this, and i’m pretty much setisfied, but I have to push myself to stay persistent.
I’m going to the gym for two months now. I feel very proud of myself, because I never though I could make it! What is more, I actually like it, I have need to go trainig, and that’s just awsome! My final goal is to go there for three months, and than start to work out outside.
I’m really going to stop. I wanted to end this, but not this way, that should be decision, and it’s going to happen in a hurry. You guess, I have financial issues and that’s the reason why i have to do this so suddenly. I’m afraid, i cry all the time, like all my fears are back, or just around the corner. It seems like the situation impossible to solve… Can’t remember when felt this bad…
...after I gave up on this it happened alone. Now I’m moving in new apartment which is much bigger and closer to school. I’m still kinda sad because I’m leavin’ my old roommate, but we still can be friends even though we’re not gonna live together any more. It was a hard decision, but in the end I’ve choose option that is better for my future.
... frustrating! Just thinking about my room mate makes me nervous! What is worse, I don’t think she is the problem. It’s so clear that I am! She is very nice, and I used to be very happy when I found her but… It’s been a year since we’re living together and I realized that she doesn’t “fit” me anymore… We have different habits, and the place we live in is actually her flat, so I never can feel like home. Btw, it’s so small, an I really need space for studying where it’s peace and quite, and I need privacy of course!
I know my parents doesn’t have enough money to pay me a flat where I would live alone and all of my closest friends (who are only people I really could live with) have different plans. Maybe the worst thing is that even if I find another room mate and place to live it would be so emberesing for me to tell that to my current room mate, because she’s is still so nice!
Oh, I’m just crazy about this!
I am….
I am not…
I am…
I am not….
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Am I?
I have a boyfriend! We’re together for two months now, but I don’t think I’m in love yet. I still feel very strange while I’m thinking about a relationship with someone who’s not my ex. I’m not even thinking about love, I feel all that like having fun with someone new and nothing more, at least for now. Maybe that’s good, but maybe I’m just foolin’ myself with this guy…
Tomorrow I’m having my first exam. I’m SOOOO nervous, and can’t say how much I really know. If I’m so insecure does it mean I don’t have enough knowledge for passing? Aaaaaaa!!!!
My grandpa died two days ago. He had a great life, he was happy, he enjoyed every single day of his life… I know all that, but…
I’ll still miss him.
