Or is my back pregnant XD
I feel so pregnant at the moment (lmbo). Cept it’s with wings! If it was a baby….
Holy shit.
I’d jump off a cliff. – _ -
Anywho… How’s everyone? Progress? Specially trying Four’s method (if you guys tried it yet, pretty sure most of you have.)
Signing off,
-Whisty
I’m back…. Sorta. Kind of. Lol I bet none of you remember me and just moved on with your life’s and all XD
I thought the picture ^ was hilarious XP I also read Four’s comments :) it kind of reminded me of that lol.
#mean sense of humor :p
But I love Four plus I love all of you ;3 lol
This is the third day I’ve been sick. How wonderful =.=
Anywho me and my friend Rachel went to the mall yesterday. I finally got to buy those spirit guide cards!!! Hahaha smart asses I fucking win all the time! xD enjoying the moment a little too much
It was fun. After walking in circles around the mall we went to the food court and walked up to random people taking their samples. Yeah, we were hungry. And too lazy to actually order food. Lol.
Soo.. my wing process has been great so far. Right under my shoulder blades my wing bumps has stuck out more than usual, plus I get these often “kicks” and aches (mostly aches).
Hope you have a great wing process
-Whisty out
Ugh. I feel like I died on this goal =.= does anyone wanna chat/talk by email or FB? Lol I rarely type a quick entry or so so if you guys want I can give you my email address or Fb. (Btw, the fb is an extra account I made…. For special reasons. e_e)
Thank you everyone for all the happy birthdays! (I’d put it in the comments buut….. That’d be a little too long, don’t ya think?) xD
Soo… Yeahh…. I had a party yesterday. Lol. Everyone was laying in my bed and my two friends were in my room alone laying on the bed…. When the doors locked. xD So one of my friends comes to me and says, “Rachel and Zack are in your room… Hmm… I wonder what theyre doing” then he gives me this weird ass face. XD
I really wanted these spirit guide cards from my Grandparents and my Grandma said she’ll get it for me, then today at church she said didn’t get it and says “I’ll explain why later” So my reaction inside is “Fuck this shit I want my god damn cards Now!!!!” I was pretty disappointed. In the end I get “little kid” stuff >.>
I’m Whisty. I’m 14 years old (turning 15 tomorrow) who wishes to have wings. You may say that I have a happy life… Friends, family, somebody to love.
Well you wrong.
Just recently… I’ve been cutting myself.
It’s been two weeks.
And I never stopped.
My two best friends, who are like my sisters, have been doing the same.
I’ve been going through pain, grief. Hate.
Two nights ago I cut my chest, along with scars across my arm.
My friend, Rachel, cut her skin.
Scratched it until it bled.
Tilly…
That night? Under her back bracelet, there were 5 fresh cuts.
Yesterday my friend started leaning towards me (when we were walking), almost smaking me into a brick wall. I tripped sideways, and a group if people passed by and started laughing.
At me.
I wish it’d stop. All of it.
My only happiness? Freedom? To escape?
Are wings.
Today?
It’s been turning out better.
Me and Rachel have been free from self-cutting for two days:)
I don’t know about Tilly though, but I hope she’ll stop.
I’ve been starting to feel more confident and better about all of us.
The feeling? Has been Great.
To me xD Yeah, meh birthday is this Saturday! I’ll be turning 15. :D
So how is everyone’s process going along? Mine is pretty good. I started to stop focusing on my wings and let them be, and I realized I have more pain and progress when I started doing that. Hehe.
I can strongly feel those wings. Like, my wing bones are sticking out more than usual, and my wing bumps are more sensitive and bigger than ever. Lol. It hurts just trying to feel them. e-e
So this is my life in band, I have nothing to do in this class.. so yeah.
Yeah.. soo… how’s everyone doing?
Wing process is good. I keep on feeling stabbs from the inside out of my back >-< Atleast I don’t wanna keep on passing out from the pain.. which is good in my point of view.
-Whisty
I feel like I haven’t posted in forever >-< Like i’m being antisocial now or something.
Eh, i’ll just post a quick wing process.
My left side of my back has been feeling sharp stabbs, like two or three, it made me want to moan because of it.
Also for a few days i’ve felt like passing out, or fainting because it’s like my energy I have in my body all of a sudden left and just went to my wings. Make sense?
Good.
Hope you guys are doing good. :/
We are the one’s who can make a difference.
-Whisty
Soo… my friends came over and rampaged my room! I have this huuuuge swollen bump on my head cause we were acting all drunk and my best friend and her bf were attacking me and we took a video xD
And so Rachel (my best friend) called my bf and starting asking questions and being retarded on the phone and my face was in my beanie bag… e.e
Onto wing process! I saw the full moon. It was all yellowish lol. I went outside and started at it, then my mother yells, “Get back here! I know your doing magic!” I’m like, “Fuck this shit I’m not doing anything!!!!” Yupp. My life. e.e
I also noticed that my wing bumps were bigger and stuck out more than ever. I sometimes wanna pass out cause of the pain! Graah.
TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuqing tired mon! But I refuse to fall asleep…..... yet.
So anyone wanna talk? Wing process? Couldn’t find the damn question mark xD Life? I enjoy comments or messages for you people, wanna get to know my family a little better ^^
Buuuut…... it IS my second entry today xD
So we’re eating…. and I said she’s eating butt balls XDDD Lol don’t judge my weirdness. I’m hyper, and tired. Lol.
So i’m sitting on a beanie bag and my sister is reading a magazine on my bed and my cat’s with her and she turned around and said, “Look! It’s a kittie kat! Just like you!” xD
So onto wing process: I’ve been feeling sharp pains lately and yesterday it felt like the pain was on the outside instead of the inside of my back. Owie. >-<
Our marching band went against the football’s marching band. Man they have got SWAG I tell you. Swaaaaag.
In having my best friend/sister spend the night with meh ~ were do tired though, but Wth xD
So goodnight you guys, and I hope you have an amazing wing process. <3
Heres what happened today.
So I’m all in a pissy mood and HE is still buggeds me about it. We had this freakin drama and my best friend (also my man wife, don’t judge xD) was the comic relief to all this. BUT he refuses to apologize. WTF MAN. =.=
Doing stupid homework (AGAIN), and three test tomorrow. Hell naw i’m only studying for AP history. Fuck the rest xD
Anyways wing process is getting somewhere. The bumps by and under my shoulder blades are starting to get more noticeable, and poking out more. My friend said my back it’s a bit squishy but hard. Get what I mean? xD
I want to fucking CRY right now! I know that nobody’s probably not gonna read this though, but I feel like letting it out. starts to sob
I hate. Him. Hate him hate him hate him. The one who wanted to be different. A mermaid (Merman in this case), the one who strived me to go on with my wings. Now he’s against it. Because of ONE Fucking person who used to be my best guy friend who discouraged him. The one who wants me to give up my wings, where I have worked for TOO DAMN LONG to let go of.
I try to help a friend. She wants to become a neko SO bad. I tell her about p-shifting and how it may help her. She was filled with joy. But today after school HE gives me this death look, staring at me like a devil who want’s my soul. He tells me, “I thought you KNEW better.” I ask “Wtf are you Talking about?” “You know what I’m talking about.” After that he turns his back and gets things out of his locker. Somehow he knew I gave my friend a note today, about m-shifting and p-shifting. (Stupid mind reader he is) and now he’s so pissed at me. I want to cry. If I had my wings already, i’d be soaring in the sky trying to get rid of this thought.I hate meh life.
I have all this shit on top of me and it’s all due tomorrow. Great. =.=
Anywho I did Neko’s amazing spell she combined with from all the other spells. Last night my back started vibrating, hurting, and tingling all at once. Today I noticed it’s a bit more pushed out and so damn sensitive! I can’t even lay a finger on my back without it hurting so much ~ > ~
I don’t think it’s as great as Neko’s progress (You lucky bastard btw xD) but it got me closer and a huge progress!
