I'm doing 30 things
I’m not ashamed to talk about it and it usually helps me to do so. My mother was 100% Russian and when I was 12 she committed suicide. I was so angry and hurt that I basically went through all the things I could change (maybe not physically) that reminded me of her and I changed them. I changed my religion, I stopped celebrating certain things that were part of the Russian culture (food, dancing, music etc.) and above all I stopped speaking Russian. I absolutely refused to do it. My grandparents and I would have conversations that consisted of them speaking to me in Russian and me answering back in English. I held my anger in for a long time until I met my husband and learned that I wasn’t the only one who lost a parent to suicide. Since then I have been gradually starting to let go of my anger and have started to incorporate some of the things I use to do into my daily life again. After all she was still my mum, and yes what she did was selfish, but I have to learn to forgive sometime and I can’t spend the rest of my life being angry. I’m lucky I have a husband who speaks Russian as well. He can help me brush up on mine. Ah he’s my life saver :-)
WriteMeALoveSong's Life List
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1. protect my myspace and facebook from stalkers.
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2. watch Miss America
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3. watch What Not To Wear!
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4. go to Burger King for breakfast.
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5. prove to people I am older than I look.
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6. get a meaningful tattoo
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7. listen to MCR and The Killers
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8. celebrate my 2 year anniversary.
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9. write in my blog more.
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10. shut negative people out of my life.
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11. spend more time with my husband
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12. play the Sims 2
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13. do something amazing for my husband.
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14. be an expert at guitar hero
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15. lose 30 lbs
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16. finish the laundry
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17. get rid of this cold
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18. find DB Cooper and the rest of his cash.
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19. get a restraining order against my ex boyfriend.
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20. enroll in University
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21. move to Indiana.
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22. Be happy everyday
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23. Read the Bible
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24. stop cursing
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25. control my road rage
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26. clean out my refridgerator
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27. see Catherine at Easter time.
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28. be on parking wars!
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29. speak Russian.
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30. be a better catholic
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