I’ve been meditating for longer, always an hour although I still just get up sometimes.
Today I focused on my posture, trying to make my back feel better. Turns out I can do it if I’m not so rigidly effortful. Also, I can count to eight if I don’t focus so sharply on my breathing.
I started out thinking about what I did today, when I was done I just looked at the breath in the body.
I was feeling a lot of loneliness- some from reading old blogs about when I was leaving LA. I did some Tonglen for the loneliness.
There were points were I was quite altered… funny. Maybe its the spine thing.
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5. write a short blog 5 times a week
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6. Write a book
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9. learn a new html tag each week
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11. finish "honeymoon suite" story
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12. Decoupage!
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13. make a website to display my calendar art
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14. Read up on Calendar art
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15. Become an expert on autistic literature
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16. Study Indonesian
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17. Keep a daily journal
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18. Touch my forehead to my knees without bending them
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19. Go to a meditation retreat
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20. Cultivate kindness and wakefulness
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21. Find Jason Fix info
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22. Learn to play bar chords
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23. Take a writing class.
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24. go back to Bali
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25. learn a joke and remember it
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26. Memorize the Heart Sutra
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27. read moby dick
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28. Learn to whistle with my fingers
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29. learn how to cook more Indian food
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30. Remember my dreams each morning
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31. Read Said's "Orientalism"
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32. practice mindful consumption
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33. Take Rodale institute organic transition class at
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This will be a concrete way to rejoin the farm
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new rule: Stop lusting after jobs just because you’ve romanticized them and they seem to enhance your status. Consider better how much you want to be there. In the courtroom all day? In Lake County? Why not insurance agent or prison guard while you’re at it. Not saying I’d refuse if it was dropped in my lap..


