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Now that all of my AP exams are over… there seems to be a lot of times on my hands! :D

So I decided to run a marathon… eerrrr… jog a marathon in November. I think I’ll start training on Memorial Day with a 3.27 mile run and run every day except for the weekends. Every week, I will add a mile. If I keep at that pace with a mile a week, I should be able to hit 23 or 24 miles by the time the week before the marathon. I will still be short about 3 miles, but ahh well. Should be fun.

I also think I will start mixed martial arts training. Bwahahaha! Should be a fun summer! :D

Now for the mental part… Hmm… Well, I guess I’ve become more open lately. Guess I haven’t been working on the mental part of this goal, eh? Only thing I can see is:

PERSERVERANCE
Run… don’t stop. Keep running. Tired? Too bad, shut up and keep punching. Thirsty? Good. Run another mile and then you can drink something. Yup. Gonna be fun.

Vegetables cost more than meat. What??! Oh well… I’ll still eat more vegetables. Just won’t completely be a vegetarian. Less meat.

Means I should have a lot more time to volunteer hopefully. Yup. Unfortunately… most community service opportunities occur on the weekend when I have work, but I’ll see what I can do.

I also intend on donating a portion of my yearly earnings to some type of organization that helps people. I usually try to pick smaller groups that help people around the area, or children in other countries. Anyone have any ideas?

I didn’t study hard enough… :(
AP Physics test was ridiculously hard for me. I blame the teacher responsible for ordering! Grrr… Form A was easy when we tried the free response problems, but man… form B was a bitch. Oh well… there’s always college.

I try to stay positive… but just when I thought that things got better, I was shot in the ass again. I’m starting to consider going to seek help from a psychiatrist… often, pretty much everyday… I think about killing myself. This has lasted for about 3 or 4 years… I just keep telling myself that there’s no point in being here if I’m never happy. But then, I remember, that my life is really good. There are people around the world who can barely even survive due to starvation, war and disease. Yet I’m bitching about stupid stuff. So in the end, nothing is wrong… Nothing is wrong. I’ll just keep smiling, and if things do get worse… I will try to seek help if I can.

Maybe I should… when I look around me, does anyone really care? I try to help people so much… and yet they betray me, they lie to me. All I ever receive are lies and deceit. Lies and deceit… will anyone ever care? Meh…

Tomorrow, I have the AP Calculus Exam. How well will I perform on it? I’ve been studying the last week for 2 classes in hopes that I may earn a good score on the test. But… Often, I become distracted. Such as now. We’ll see how well I do on th exam tomorrow. Back to studying…

Today, I ran in my first running event… no wait. I lied. Today, I ran in my second running event. Forgot that I walked the first one, hehe.

It was at Beverly Hill’s Middle school and only 3.1 Miles, but we all got to start somewhere, right? After running it… I realized how much harder I have to work in order to run for a marathon. I think I’m just going to start looking around for running events and enter as many of them as I can. They will keep me motivated until I am ready for the marathon.

I am jogging a lot more now finally. It seems to have a great deal of benefits. I feel better and there seems to be some weight loss.

Hopefully, I can continue this for a very long time. I am jogging about 3-4 times a week right now. If possible, I want to get off my lazy butt and do it 5 times a week. Ahh well, wish me luck!

If I keep a log, I will probably realize what I am doing and remember what I am doing. I can then vary my routines. In the middle of May, I think i will begin training for real again since I will have time. My goals for fitness are:
1) Become stronger
2) Become faster
3) Become more coordinated
4) Increase cardiovascular fitness

http://fitness.scoobysworkshop.com/index.htm
That’s a very good website for health and fitness. It’s realistic and true, unlike most advertisements and such. I love that site.

Why? Because I am happy. :)

To me, they really are. Well, at least from pictures I’ve seen. They seem somewhat mystical and like something from a movie or book. Nature is beautiful. Or Sciences… I think it’s more science. Oh well. It doesn’t matter if I see them from Alaska or Norway. I just want to see them at least once before I’m gone.

...and I want to protect the weak. Today, I went jogging with a friend. After she went home, I headed for my own. While I was walking, a group of people on bicycles came up and I guess they wanted to fight me? 7 people on bikes. Haha. They didn’t do shit to me, but if they did, I guarantee at least one of them would either be dead, or I would have one of their bikes.

Which brings me to… people are weak when they attack in groups. Have you ever seen just 1 person picking a fight with anyone? Never. It’s always the pack that gives them strength. I hate those useless sacks of flesh. But… Thank you. You useless sacks of meat keep me motivated. It is you who makes me work harder. It is people like you, who cause people like me, to become stronger, and when we do become stronger… we will fucking own you. You will never understand… never. People like them are ignorant of how the world works.

I will become stronger. I will never give up… Ever. I will protect what is mine, and protect the people I care about and love. I will work harder, and never stop, until my goal is reached. Then, I will push harder still.

He comes to America once every 5 years? On top of that, it’s always on the west Coast.

Yup, I got it.. on Jan 9th. Turns out my nails were too long and I had to cut into the skin to remove them… But alas! Sacrifices must be made and pain must be felt for things you desire. Not doing so good on it though. In fact, I suck at it. But I will persevere until I learn it. Makes such a wonderful mellow sound.

I think I’m not the type of person to have long hair. That or maybe I’m doing it wrong. I need a trim soon. Kind of looks really puffy.

Job sucks. Out in the sun for 7 hours. No breaks at all. No days to sleep in. Really tired. Tanned to a lovely chocolate color. $7.15 an hour. Don’t even know who the managers are. Alone working. Rain, snow, heat, cold, thunderstorm. I think it’s time for a new job.

I have to make the world a better place if I can. And by helping people, hopefully they will realize that I am trying to change into a better person. Yeah… a jackass can never come back as a horse, but hey, he/she can try.

I want to be healthier. I’m trying to stay fit for tennis and such, so when the season begins, I can out run everyone hopefully. I think I’m doing okay right now. Started jogging a lot more, especially when I am angry, I just go out and run. It really relieves a lot of stress for me, and makes me healthier too. So far, I’m jogging about 1 mile 3 times a week with a 7:30 mile. Slow and not too far, but hey, I got to start somewhere, right?