Zizzage

whom I’d really like to become a friend. From the few words that have passed between just the two of us, he seems like a really awesome guy and someone I’d love to have as a friend. I think we have a lot we could talk about.
The issue is that he kinda intimidates me in that I’ve seen him as “too cool for me” for a while. I’m realizing that he’s just a normal guy, but I’m still afraid he only speaks to me cuz he’s nice. He’s also nearly always with other people and I don’t know how my presence would be accepted among them.
I know I overthink it and should just go be sociable, which is why I’m making it a goal.

I will be shaving my head in 18 days! Right after my high school graduation.
I’m so excited!

I like the artificial walls, but I climbed a real rock face once and it was NOT FUN! They thought I was really good cuz I guess I got up the easy “trail” really fast, so they told me I NEED to try the next one. So, I did, and it was painful and frustrating and even when I got to the top I felt like I hadn’t done much, cuz many places I’d sort of pulled myself up an inch at a time and the belay held me in place another inch higher while I lost my grip again.

Sure, I may be only a senior in high school, but I know I’m in love. I’ve been with him for almost nine months, and he was my best friend for a year before that. I’ve never loved anybody as much as I love him. I trust him completely, and he knows everything about me. No one makes me feel so completely comfortable and no one else could make me believe that I’m beautiful even when I’m climbing a mountain, covered in sweat, and running on four hours of sleep. He makes me so happy, and he makes me feel like everything’s ok even when it seems like everything else in my life is going crazy.
He’s currently across the country going to tech school, and I’ll be going to college next year, so the future is hazy, but I’m not too worried about it. Whether we stay together or decide not to, I know we’ll figure it out together, and either way, I’ll always have the good memories.

A bit of advice for those of you looking for love: don’t look so hard! Get to know people for the sake of getting to know people, and eventually you’ll realize one of them is perfect for you!