i want to be with someone so bad, i want to be in love and everything.. but whenever something seems like it might be going that way, i get scared.. i back off i guess? i don’t know know what to do or something..
i feel like if i’m totally outgoing around a person when i first meet him or her, i am that way whenever i’m with them. it’s not so much around people i don’t know as people i am intimidated with.
i’m not sure if this goal can ever be completed… it seems more like a way to live life. i’ve been daring and passionate a few times… but not nearly enough! i need to be more brave and throw myself into certain situations!
i broke this. i was on vacation so i was like what the hell? i’m in the fucking bahamas! it wasn’t a big deal, lasted like 5 min.. but whatever.
the problem is that i don’t really like anyone. i haven’t, really. in awhile. but i want to so bad, i want the cuteness and the butterflies and all that. i miss it!
i’m gonna like someone and go for it. and be brave and just go for it.
all i can say is go to the dermatologist!! i dont know why i waited so long… honestly my face was 80% better within 3 days.
gonna tell him i like him
hopefully itll be ok..
i wouldnt be in this situation if i hadnt taken chances with this boy though..
im going to belle and sebastian with broken social scene and ted leo/rx tmrw
so excited!
the problem is more like find people to go to concerts with. i kind of have weird taste in music and tend to listen to bands nobody else has heard of before…
but, on my agenda is
The Fiery Furnaces
Belle and Sebastian w/ Broken Social Scene & Ted Leo/Rx
tonight was Tilly and the Wall, but i had nobody to go with.. :-(
im scheduled for june 27. and i think im going to fail if i dont get alot more practice with parrallel parking. ive had at least 5 people tell me that they didnt pass the first time cuz of parrallel parking. and im so excited that i really dont want this to happen to me…
its the summer! some of my friends have pools! we had plans to skinny dip the other night but we were too tired… next week hopefully!
i’m usually pretty shy around people i don’t know or am not so comfortable with.. i hate it. cuz when i’m around my friends and family i’m not shy AT ALL and i have so much more fun.. what can ya do…
