I dont know where or exactly when we drifted so far away from eachother. We hurt each other every day by saying the worst things possible that we wouldnt even use against our worst enemies.We sit there on the phone in complete silence most of the time, with a pounding in my head from the weight of a thousand angry words we yell between eachother. Im sure you are realizing just as much as i am that its not solving anything its just making us hurt more and more. I was thinking last night about all the fun we use to have together. Our tickle fights to the stupid meaningless spats we would get into just so we could make up for it later..hehe. I was thinking even more about what i could live without. Asking myself if i could live without you. Without your kisses and big bear hugs…also your sweet random romance that just comes up out of no where. Comparing what i would rather have. My late nights with my guy friends, drinking, and partying what have you… or forever with you. I cant stand being wrong…but i can live without being right…but just once..=) I really dont care who really is wrong or who is right. But we both know that we have come too far to let this all go now and slip right between our fingers. So if i have to choose..i choose you!! I cant live without your love and without your gentle touch.I could try but i would never succeed. Baby we both have pride stronger than a brick wall. And neither one of us is going to break. But my love for you is so strong that the pride i stand for isnt worth all this pain. I can not face another day without you in my life. I dont care who is the one to blame. We worked together to get into this mess we can work together to get out. If this is what it takes, i am the one to break my pride..cause im not giving up. I really dont know who I am without you. I feel like a monster. Once again your right. I have turned into a totally different person since i got here. Which makes me want to work my ass off to get out of here and back to you. I dont really know who you are anymore. We fight like we are barely friends when we used to be amazing lovers. I remember when I was all you lived for. Now when im not even two inches away from you..you laying next to me i feel so alone. Like i am just laying there by myself like how i did the other night. I am asking and begging you to love me the way you use to and stop all my tears..hold me like you did back when and tell me everything will be alright. Every time we talk about our problems i get more hope. When we kiss i get even more hope. Like the way you use to reassure me when you held me close and looked into my eyes and kissed me telling me how much you really love me.I guess ive been hoping this whole time is one of these nights i can talk to you for hours with no interuption and talk through our problems maybe hear you say how much you love me and how much you cant live without me. With no crying and no broken hearts. I feel so hoplessly in love with you. I guess all im asking is to quit blaming each other for everything, to get over it and give our use to be amazing relationship a chance. I know i have said most of this before but i dont care. Dont bring up the past anymore. Leave it in the past where it belongs.It hurts to talk about and i just want to move on. Lets move on together. I hope this letter makes a change in your life, like last night did, when i was talking to Matt. Dont hate him..he knows just how you feel cause the same shit happened to him. He told me i need to grow up and figure out what i want in life. I told him what i wanted. I want to graduate college..get a degree in business..make something of myself and do all that with you right next to me. My guy friends arent going to be around when i need to cry. They are there when i need to party or hang out with someone.. which im not going to lie i have fun. But not as much fun as I do with you..I love you baby so much!! NO LIES!!..NO MORE BREAKING PROMISES!!..you deserve better than that. Im here when you need me. Please write me back and dont procrastinate and say you will do it later..i want to hear your input on this..write me first then call me…cause sometimes you cant say things you want to say directly to the person. I am going to go take a shower and do some homework maybe move my shit. I hope you had a great day at school baby…MUCH LOVE..
i love you,
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I am a 19 year old formal college student and I just recently got back together with a man that I have been with recently for a little over a year…I love him so much and we have both tried to get over eachother but its impossible for both of us. We just love each other too much!! I am a hopeless romantic and he well lacks there of…We have had troubles in the past with both of us being too flirty amongst other people when we arent around each other. Now i love the guy to death and i am a hopeless romantic.I am in desperate need of help to show him how much I care and also to get him to show the same without revealing that I need his romance. Just like hints and such. Now we are both a little over an hour away from each other. He lives in the city i grew up in. No i guess my question is how can i show him that i love him and i want to spend my life with him? 1 without scaring him and 2 so its something a man would love to do?