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I want to fall in love, with that person loving me back.

Gosh it’s so frustrating and disgusting. I’m young, not anywhere near being chubby or fat, but I have many, disgusting stretch marks on my inner thighs and my butt. I can’t even wear a bikini. I can’t believe this.

I know this is such a terrible way to get rid of some, but what I did (don’t do this) is I cut my stretch marks, but just about 3. I don’t care about the pain, but for me it’s really worth it just so it would go away. There’s going to be a scar but at least it will disappear. Thing is, I have hell of a lot of stretch marks, and I don’t want to cut up my whole thigh. o_o

I started putting coconut oil. Ugh… What makes it go away? Laser surgery?

Need to make myself & my parents proud.