aConfused1

I don’t know why but whenever I am there in an environment in which I am comfortable I feel happy and began to think that it’s easy to stay happy, but as the environment changes and I become sluggish and find it extremely difficult to be happy.
It’s unfortunate that most of the time during a day I have to stay in the latter environment,that’s my job.
What I suppose I have to do is to make myself comfortable in this environment.That’s really difficult !!

I have been so quiet throughout my life,never able to speak in front of others,usually it’s easy for me to speak up when there’s only one or two people are in front of me but when their no. increases I become so shy and interrovert that I am not able to utter even a single word.
Even if I speak this is just the spluttering which makes me feel embrassed.This all is having a bad impression on my colleages.
But now it’s a start to destroy this habit of mine and now as I know that MY COLLEAGES HAVE SEEN THE WORST PART OF MY SPEAKING SKILLS so there’s nothing more worst than that.So I should at least give it a try.
Expecting big things in first try have resulted in failures,so I will start with a small thing.I will start speaking with different colleages with whom I usually don’t talk,I will ask them different things as a first step.

I have wasted past 22 years of my life due to my sad nature,
I have never enjoyed the moments of my life which could have been the golden moments of my life.
Even in the good times I tend to stay netral and usually don’t enjoy.
The main reason i think is due to my shy and interrovert nature.
I am new member to this site,and ” to be happy ” is my first goal here, hope I will be able to overcome the dark side of my life by listing my goals here.
I hope others who have overcome this problem will help me to get out.