Ashley

. i have tried EVERYTHING. and i mean EVERYTHING . he filled a hole in urs & my heart that hole will stay empty unless filled with the right thing. i had to learn the hard way and a pray you wont have to. . . it hurts so so much. i dont know another way to express it except for just pure pain. i tried whatever i could. whatever any book, friend, movie, magazine, advice i could get said. the only thing that has truly made a difference is this. jsut look it up. it cant hurt? i mean can anything really hurt more then you’ve already been hurt? its worth a try. hey i mean anythign is worth a try to see any sign of hope for LIVING again. NOT as a broken beat up heartbroken zombie. so just try it . grab the book and jsut freaking look this up. . .
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3
and the verse closest to my heart, my hope that i will be able to be free of what the one i truly loved and devoted my life to did to me. the way he can make it seem as if i never existed. replace me like furniture while i spent months in agony just wanting to know if there was a single thought of me in his mind.
“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” PSALM 34:17-18
now write it down. stick it in your wallet. put all your hope in that promise. and dont give up. there’s got to be a way we can all pull through this and forget the one that holds us back from the life we are supposed to be living! not this one full of misery all because we gave everything we had to someone out of pure love deep in our hearts. there is someone else out there that will appreciate the amount of love you are capable of giving. especially because you are capable of giving so much since you still cant forget. just like me. i keep this verse close and put all my hope in it that there is a life for me to live & if i truly trust in what the Lord has said he will help bring it to me and leave the pain behind for something new.
“You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.” – Jan Glidewell