adelex81

I used to turn heads wherever i went. I didnt see myself as nice lookin but was told i was. I want to look good again. Goin to get my hair done and stop making holes in myself pickin imaginary spots. Get a new wardrobe, look sexy.

I am a curse. Everything i do seems to mess up. I ruin everything i touch. My life has been shit for years, my precious daughter doesnt even live with me cos i was a drug addict….actually I was clean when my dad took her to live with my gran. I still take drugs to try n escape but its useless. I can control my habit cos my partner- who I left yesterday has the money to fund it. So Im lucky there. Its easier than being an escort, done that too.
All i do is lie in bed all day crying and sleeping to forget all my problems, but it doesnt even work. most of this comes from my own home. His children have made my life unbearable. I cant even write anymore about the hell i live in.
i see my life being chipped away at, my soul is sunk to depths unreachable. I feel helpless, ive no strength, i feel weak and i loathe it. Did I say all i want is love?