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Damn… I did it! But I’m not going to beat myself up over it… just going to start the countdown all over.

Duchess… I appreciate the tough love but it doesn’t apply entirely in my case. Our problems were not about other people.. he wasn’t screwing anyone else, he was just extremely neglectful. It’s not an abusive relationship that I’m trying to extract myself from… it’s simply unheathy and I deserve something more…. we all do!

I do agree with one part of what you had to say… if you let a man treat you like garbage….. pretty soon that’s how you start to see yourself.

Thank you all for the support.

I’m a little past the two week mark and IT ISN’T GETTING ANY EASIER! WTF!! I so want to put this all behind me and at the same time I so want him back in my life.

Hang in there everyone! This sucks!!

It’s been 11 days, 12 if I can make it thru today. Help!! Someone tell me why I can’t call him again?
I don’t know what the hell is going on, I made it through V-Day with less of a problem than I expected… not that it was a walk in the park but I made it!! Even this morning I noticed suddenly that I hadn’t thought of him for a couple of hours and even congratulated myself for all the good work and thought that maybe it was finally working and that this time I was finally going to purge all traces of him.

And now….. omigod, I don’t know what’s happened, I can’t concentrate and I can’t get him out of my mind. I’m fighting the urge to contact him with everything I’ve got but I’m worried. I keep having agruments with myself!! It wasn’t a real firm breakup… it was a fight and I chose to bow out and just stopped all contact. I’ve been down this road many times before but it’s never been longer than 2 or 3 days. The way it usually works is I talk to him, he’s pissed off for a while somehow it always ends up being my fault when we both know it wasn’t and I accept less…. I settle and again the relationship remains on his terms. After a couple of months things are back to “normal” then the cycle starts all over again. I really do want off the merry-go-round but….. oh my, when it is good, it’s soooo good!!

Help!!