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I came really close to doing it Sunday. I started questioning why I was stopping, and to be honest I still am searching for a better answer than I have. Nonetheless, I think I have given it up for good.

Well, I made it through two weeks. I’m going to tell some of my friends and see their reaction. They probably are not going to understand why I am quitting and then not believe that I was able to go two weeks and counting without masturbating.

I feel like if you can go two weeks, you have enough control to go as long as you wish. I will find out if this is true.

Also, I am not doing this for God. I am doing this for me. If you are doing this because you feel like it is a sin, thats fine. (I personally don’t think it is a sin) I am not trying to knock anyone. But I am doing this out of my own will to better myself. I know that this is personally a way I can improve myself and my interaction with the world around me. I haven’t seen “eye to eye” with God, or maybe I should say religion, specifically Catholicism. And I feel the need to say, this is not for anyone but me, and was not prompted by anyone but me.

I’ve been toying around with the idea of getting a tattoo, but didn’t really know what I’d get. I did know, being an art school grad and a kid who thrives on being unique, I would have to design it myself. Well, I sat down and started working on a design. I came up with one that was quite promising.

Rather than creating a tattoo that was purely aesthetic, I knew it had to have some meaning. Well, I don’t even really want to say what I came up with, because I feel it to be very original. It deals with religious imagery, (right, I know your say how is that original), but it references religion very directly. It basically is a critique on organized religion. It references spilled blood and battles, fought in its name. It also references the “clear” division of good and evil, but makes it less clear. You can read into alot of different ways. What it isn’t is an attack on God, of the moral values that come with religion, but rather the forceful nature of man and his religious beliefs. So, when I have the cash and the design ironed out. I’ll post it, but this will be a long time before it is ready.