One thing I need to accept is that I might not be who I say I am. Weirdly, I think I’m perceived in a drastically different way than who I think I am deep down inside and it’s refreshing and WONDERFUL to find a kindred spirit, someone who you’ve only just met but can tell you the wisest advice you’ll EVER hear.
Yesterday was closing of the first professional musical I was in. We had our cast party and a friend staying at one of the actor’s homes came too because he was driving her to the airport for an early flight later on. Anyways, we got to talking, she saw a painting I’d done for one of the gals who was in the show, and then she asked whether I was studying theater. I told her no, and that I was in education.
“Why?” She asked curiously.
“Well…um….because I like children and I feel I can teach them something and…” I stammered on and on and she just listened patiently.
“You’ve got all this beautiful talent when it comes to your art and your acting, why not pursue it more?”
She told me that education was an “anytime” thing. She struggled between studying engineering and opera in school and asked herself “Which of these can I fall back on?” and the answer was, of course, engineering. That meant she needed to take her chances and live a little wildly.
“You can always, ALWAYS fall back on education. If you’ve got what you’ve got right here and right now, you can’t put it away for safe keeping. It may be too late then.”
I guess I need to accept that maybe I’ve caught the theater bug again and that being surrounded by some of the kindest and most talented people I know at 3AM dancing to Diana Ross and watching funny baby videos is something I have to experience A LOT more of before I tie myself down to things that aren’t really making me happy at the moment.