I need to be more brave and make the art I love.. to stand up for myself, to stand up to others and what I believe in, to be more vocal.. I have to do many things to cultivate this bravery I have lost.
aiissai's Life List
1. Have a home birth
2. breastfeed my daughter until she wants to stop
3. Become an established Website Designer
4. Sell my first painting
5. make money from my art
6. live comfortably
7. be more positive
8. Let go of the past
9. Become raw vegan
10. lose 2 stone before christmas
11. stop using shampoo
How I did it: I reviewed this goal recently and now I think I have become a better carer. I realised I'd grown in the two years that I've been one from a person completely open and a blank slate, to judging the lives of people I was caring for and trying to make far too many decisions for them.. now I think I have completely relaxed a a carer around the people I work with and I am much more a valuable tool for them which I think is the most important p… Read how I did it…
when I did this for a month, I felt so good, but I made many mistakes.. I would like desperately to begin this feeling again, I am just in a bad financial situation and where I come from fruit is most expensive because it’s all imported, and vegetables are the same… but I will vow to improve on this.. and when I do I will make this my main goal.. It made me feel so good. It’s a great detox and I would like to detox my body to be more healthy and have a healthy baby one day.. Also I know that many have said they made mistakes along the way, but the fact remains the more you try at something the stronger your willpower becomes as you tap into it more and more to change your life for the better.. Yes I will acomplish this hopefully by the end of the year.
I found this goal through typing “stop smoking when sober” and then I saw this goal and I realised that actually my goal is to be more sober and everything else follows. I stop being so dehydrated, so tired, so imbalanced, I stop smoking because my will power is pretty strong when sober. So my goal is to stay sober for a year, come what may, I may not be the life and soul of a party, I might not be making quick friends, but who remembers those things the next day anyway? I did this for 6 months recently, just since April I’ve been misereble and felt I needed to get lost into a bottle for a month or two.. but I have goals to be healthy.. to use my talents more.. not just laze around.. all I think are possible when you remain sober doing positive things and hopefully make some friends on the same road.