I'm doing 9 things
Getting Ready To Transfer
2 years ago
How come all of the schools with med programs that I want to transfer to have so many humanities requirements? You’re telling me that chemistry isn’t art? I find IR spectra to be very beautiful!
aimengzi's Life List
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1. recover from anorexia
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2. go to medical school
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3. learn Mandarin
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4. Go to 2008 Olympics in Beijing
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5. Play Clair de Lune
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6. learn how to make mooncake
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7. save a life
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8. run a marathon
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9. get a good score on the MCAT
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Recent entries
Confused
2 years ago
I have been engaging in disordered eating behaviors for a year. I started at 130 pounds with a BMI of 20.3 and am now 88 pounds with a BMI of 13.7 and no menstrual cycle.
I am on the fence about recovery. I would like to get rid of the negative thoughts that anorexia brings without gaining the weight. As I am pre-med and have a passion for science, I understand the physical damage I have done and continue to do to my body. Unfortunately, I find that I cannot bring this knowledge to use and push myself in the right direction, and I rely on my father and therapist for positive insight and support.
I can’t recover for myself. I am trying to accept recovering for my family. It’s so difficult, I can’t trust myself. I can’t see myself. I’ve lost myself in this disorder and I’ve become comfortable with it. Twisted.
