ajsbrokenheart

I’m so sick from this breakup. No food for 3 days. I can’t stop crying, feels like my heart is going to jump from my throat. The pain in my chest comes in waves. At times I feel like I am going to have a heart attack. I’m fine one minute and sitting on another planet the next. I feel like I am greiving a death… what the hell do I do? I’m comforted by the dark, quiet. I am quite opposite of this character. Gemini at heart and am busy putting my paws into everthing I can – and yet I feel like sleeping forever, but when I do, vivid memories play over and over again.

I returned his ring, and peaunut butter, he always had to eat mine so I made him by his own. Then bought my own today and cryed putting his peanut butter in his bag of belongings. Had a hard time parting with it. Not the ring but the peanut butter. I have a room full of flowers roses carnations lilies from friends – Looks like a morg in here, rather, someone just died. I’m open to listen to any one that wants to be 100% honest. Honest to me because I was lied to for 3/6months – I gave my all. I loved this man and yet, here I am- an involved feminist, believe in feeling liberated, dominate, radical, strong, passionate, feminine – But not heartless- fearless. Feminists do have hearts people. My heart is weeping. My eyes are sore and swollen. I don’t want to move from the chair I have been sitting in for 5 hours… No kids No marriage – but I wanted it with my heart and soul… and now I’m left with me. Not so bad. But my partner is gone…. my door is closed… and I’m left with stale bread!