Andi

Okay so I was bad. I sort of messed up my goal. My book for April didn’t get finished in April. I thought the “Catcher in the Rye” was boring and slow for the first for chapters. I just couldn’t get into it. Then I ended up working and didn’t have time to just read through a bunch of it all at once, like I had for my other books before. But really I figure if I just read 12 books this year then my goal is met. Sure that doesn’t seem like a lot of books, but I am sort of a slow reader and it just seems to make me tired. It’s a great way to give me something to do while I’m at lunch at work now. Plus I had all sorts of SOP’s and such to read so it wasn’t like I wasn’t reading at all. And of course there are my RPG’s that I’m behind on.

I dunno I wasn’t too crazy about this book. I just thought it would have something more to it. It didn’t really have a point. But I wasn’t too upset by the fact. I thought it was funny that Holden talks about “The Great Gatsby” in it when I just read that book not too long ago. The book did do one thing, effected me and my impressionable ways. There for a week or so I was all upset about people being phony. And how he says all the time so and so is this or does this, they really do or they really are. That suck with me. In fact I ended up putting it in the post I wrote last night for one of my RPG’s. So another classic down. I’m almost done with my book for May, good thing too cause the month is almost over.

What’s that? It is seriously sad to say, but I have no friends. I had friends in Arizona, people that I’d go out with on rare occasions, or play games with or something to that effect. But I’ve been back for how long now, and I don’t have any friends. Of course not having a job didn’t help because I couldn’t afford to go out and meet people. But now that that goal is checked off that excuse is just about too. Need to get back on my feet, and then hopefully I’ll be good to go. I mean it’s not like I never do anything, but only with family. And don’t get me wrong they’re great. I think the biggest thing about that just is that they aren’t always available. If I had friends I’d have options. On so many counts. I think 3 is a good number to set this goal at. I mean sure I’d be welcome to the idea of having more than 3 friends, but I’m the type of person that would rather have a few close friends than a lot of not so close ones. That and how I am about approaching people 3 could possibly take awhile. I do have friends here, I just haven’t really be able to find them again. Of course the goal is listed as new friends, so I guess if I get the old ones back they don’t really count. But I may cheat and say that two old friends for the purpose of calling this done, counts as one new one, just in case. Yes I’m a dork, some people find that appealing, hehe. So any takers?

That’s what this goal is all about. I’m not sure that it matters what I’m discovered for. There is any number of things I wouldn’t mind being, if I could just learn, if someone would be willing to teach me. Give me all the right tools to complete my many though underdeveloped talents (Read tongue in cheek). I love to sing with the radio, but I have a hard time carrying a tune. Gee you have a great voice, let’s see what we can do to really make this work. That one is pretty out there, but hey (geeze I did it again) it’s just an example. Mostly this pertains to my writing though. It is so hard for a new writer to be published, and really I haven’t even tried. Hence my hoping for the easy way out. Not sure if I can act, but I’d love to be an action hero, just for the hell of it. Although considering, I’m not sure if being able to act is a real requirement. I should be good, hehe. And of course there’s always the idea of love. Just waiting for it to find me again. So come on, somebody, and discover me.