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Hey guys, (gals probably)
So day 1 to be quite fair, if a day is an absolute no pick day.
But my picking is, in general, WAY better than it used to be. I hardly ever get stuck in the mirror anymore, the shower isn’t a dangerous zone, and I can often quit after one or two picks.
I have consistently put an effort into this, and I have talked about it with other people. I found two friends in real life who pick, and I talk to them about it sometimes. Like, about my problem and how I feel.
And it was really useful to get the free counseling at my school.
I think the shame I have wrapped up in this is way more damaging than the skin picking. I’m working on somehow swallowing that I do this, I skin pick, have for years, and that I’m trying very hard to stop.
Also, I’ve found that lavish attention to my skin is helpful. Every once in a while I’ll take a soaking bath with like, lavendar and salt and stuff in it, and then exfoliate (I like to use espresso grounds, but I’m kind of a hippie and like to make my own stuff and I have a theory that the caffeine stimulates blood flow, based on nothing but my imagination), then I get all goobed up w/ coconut oil, like the cooking kind that comes in a jar and looks like butter. My sister told me it’s antibacterial, anti fungal, and it feels great. I usually put some in my hair for the heck of it.
Anyways. After all that, I feel so happy and like, self indulging, that I’m not anywhere near the anxious, neurotic state I usually am when I start picking. Plus the coconut oil is too greasy to touch.
Anyways. I am starting on Day 1. The goal is certainly a pick free day, but in general, my picking is getting so much better through self love and attention.
Oh, here’s another trick I learned in counseling, keep an index card in your pocket w/ the date on it. When you pick, get it out and make a hash mark. Then you have a tally of all your picks. This is extremely helpful.
