I'm doing 39 things
Nobody crazy enough
11 months ago
I’ll keep looking
alendar's Life List
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1. Make amends to the people I've harmed
1 entry1 person -
2. be healthy
2 entries1,997 people -
3. Make new friends
1 entry12,744 people -
4. Save money
2 entries14,686 people -
5. Live Without Fear
2 entries . 1 cheer603 people -
6. wake up when my alarm clock goes off
1 entry7,515 people -
7. Exercise daily
1 entry . 1 cheer1,958 people -
8. Stretch each morning
2 entries . 1 cheer1 person -
9. Shower, shave, and brush each night
1 person -
10. Call my sponsor daily
1 entry1 person -
11. Do a tenth step each night
1 entry1 person -
12. pay off my debts
1 entry970 people -
13. Learn to play the guitar
12,628 people -
14. Be of use to others
1 entry . 1 cheer1 person -
15. Write a love song
1 entry72 people -
16. Love and let go
1 entry3 people -
17. be a better son
89 people -
18. Be self-forgetting
1 person -
19. Blog daily for 30 days
2 entries2 people -
20. Have happy and joyous children and grandchildren
1 person -
21. Lay next to my wife in a field of stone
1 entry1 person -
22. Forgive all wrongs
3 entries1 person -
23. Fall madly in love with God
1 entry . 1 cheer3 people -
24. Fall madly in love with myself
1 entry . 1 cheer4 people -
25. Quit picking my nails
1 entry1 person -
26. Dance
1 entry2,331 people -
27. Quit soda
1 entry . 1 cheer13 people -
28. Work with horses
2 entries . 1 cheer13 people -
29. Make my wife happy
140 people -
30. Check into the Mankind Project
1 person -
31. enjoy solitude
6 people -
32. make a list of 10 things that make me happy.
2 entries . 1 cheer1 person -
33. read a book
1 entry335 people -
34. go to a professional football game
1 entry19 people -
35. paint
1 entry1,331 people -
36. see a play
1 entry64 people -
37. Take more pictures
1 entry14,304 people -
38. Learn to cook
8,168 people -
39. Make my son happy
7 people
How I did it
It made me
sane 
How I did it: Got a sponsor, determined he was not interested in me, so fired him and got one on the internet who took time out of his life to help me.Work the 12 steps, no need to work them slowly, just thoroughly. If the 4th and 5th step don't hurt, then you probably didn't do it right. Read how I did it…
It made me
happy 
How I did it: I stopped working while my son was talking and looked at him directly, for a start. I also started working full time from home much to my work's dismay.My adopted older son, I asked him to help me come up with a solution, because I had run out of ideas. He did, and now he's living with his grandparents.My adopted daughter has reached out to me and we have a tentative relationship, though I internal distance myself from her cha… Read how I did it…
It made me
so so
How I did it: First through the 12 steps, all of which were worked with a sponsor. It was painful, but I learned from it.I do not currently work the program, so I suppose I'm doomed! Read how I did it…
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Recent entries
Rethinking my assumptions
11 months ago
I’m curious about them. I know my relationships with people are awkward to say the least.
Horses have never been noticably afraid of me, which for some reason makes me overly happy. To care what an animal thinks of me is a bit silly, but I do.
I remember Lonely are the Brave, and the relationship he had with his horse.
I might look into EAT, if its appropriate for people like me.
Equine Assisted Therapy, for when I forget what EAT means.
Today I forgive Marceil
11 months ago
I forgive you, Marceil
I tried to manipulate you
Make you love and desire me
I apologize, whereever you are
I wish all the best for you and your children and husband
You were happy and filled with joy
and I wanted that for my own
I could not be honest and simply me, I had to be someone else
You were right to take that job
I was a kid, you were a mom with a very sick child
I drop all resentment
here
now
I forgive
and still feel warm regard for your giggles and beautiful heart
