alexiou34

I’ve learned that I can’t stop smoking daily unless I fully and completely commit to the goal. I can’t ween myself off it. It has to be severe cutoff of the drug and all of the mediums it uses to suck me in. I can’t be around potheads, have dealers’ numbers in my phone, or even watch “Weeds”. I will replace all of that weed time with activities such as working out, physio for my shoulders and back, writing/music, and making my workspace/home a clean and enjoyable environment.
I’ve also realized that it’s more than a goal. It’s a necessity. The time is now. Stopping the daily use of weed is the outer layer of this goal; the core principle is to create a disciplined, confident and ambitious man whose sole motivation to strive for excellence comes from the fact that he is blessed with ability and will use those abilities to foster a career and family that he can be truly proud of.
Wish me luck. Just took my last toke. Feeling good..for the moment. Gotta go to work in an hour. Not going to drink after close, that would just tempt me. I’ll be off at 2 anyways…think I’ll go straight to sleep..I have a long day tomorrow…..:)

Well, I’ve tried everything from reflecting on 43things to deleting numbers to throwing away paraphanelia. The only time in the last 5 years that I haven’t smoked was in Europe, when I was forced to not have any. I am at a junction in my life where I have to make a choice. Am I going to continue smoking all day, every day (within my career) or am I going to control it (within my career) so that it doesn’t ruin me financially, physically and emotionally? Here’s the plan: I know I can’t quit entirely and I don’t want to, I do not HATE weed. But I need the assurance of knowing that I am not a slave to its actions. So, for the next two weeks I am going to smoke only at nights and on the weekends. No wake and bake, no bringing weed to work, etc. On 4/20, I am going to smoke myself silly and, from Apr. 21 – May. 30, the challenge begins: 40 days and 40 nights, no smoking, no drinking, no binging. After this can be done I will be able to smoke on the weekends only and not allow weed to ruin my daily life!! This is realistic, specific, and exciting! Wish me luck!

Waking up was easy, not smoking in the afternoon was easy, the night was tough. Chillin’ with the boys and not hitting the bong sucked, smelling that sweet scent of chronic and all that shit. But I’m proud that I denied smoking four times today. I just said no, even when that little voice said “might as well…” I’m gonna continue to do the things that make me happy: exercising/sports, listenin’ to music, writing, chillin’. I’ve done one day before, never two…here we go!

Remember the oath!