alfokris

i have the tools and the desire, i just need to get past my stupid fear that society has put in me.

i love yoga. i just need to decide that it’s really what i want to do, and save up $700 by October to get my first 2 levels completed.

It’s coming up! I am almost ready. I just need to remain calm, and keep practicing.

i rode my bike everywhere last year, but then winter hit, and since then i can’t seem to get back in the habit. i need to be better and not so lazy.

i just found out i have TMJ, so i really need to quit this habit. pushing your jaw out of alignment a lot affects your jaw and neck muscles.

i shaved my head last december, and it was completely worth it. it forces you (or at least, me) to let go of something that “defines” you. everyone should shave their head at least once in their life. and make sure to do it yourself. it is so liberating to just grab at hair and chop it off.

i did this piece last semester and it was so worth it! i wouldn’t suggest trying to learn it on your own, especially if you are not studying private voice. it is definitely junior in college or greater literature. if you try to learn it, or anything that is out of range or skill level, and end up pushing it, you could really damage your voice in the long run.
that said, it was really fun to be able to go crazy and play with a dagger on stage.

i’m bisexual, and still trying to decide who and when to tell people about it. i will tell anyone who asks me, but i don’t see a reason to stand up and shout it yet. i’m not in a relationship with anyone, and i guess i will just see what happens if i find the perfect girl.

i’m not sure if that will be marriage or before, but i know i want it to be special, and not something i will look back on and regret.

now that i’ve stopped wearing makeup, i feel like a real person, and that i don’t need to depend on manufactured products to make me feel presentable. i wear makeup occasionally, when i’m feeling artistic or i’m in a play, but i don’t like feeling like my real face isn’t good enough to show the world.

i used to be of a certain religion that demeans women, and wants them in the kitchen with 12 children by the age of 25. there’s nothing wrong with being “girly,” say, liking pink a lot, or liking to dress up, as long as it’s really that you like doing it. if it is just because our society expects it of you, then that’s not healthy. you are not being “you.” i’ve never wanted to be a housewife or mother, but i felt obligated because of my religion. now that i’ve realized that, i feel free to be myself, and to be single for as long as i want to. and i respect those women who DO want to be a housewife and mother, such as my mother. everyone has different dreams.

i need to think about others more than myself.

i haven’t eaten meat for almost a month. it’s really not hard, since i don’t like most meats. the only hard thing is not eating chicken and skittles. i would like to be a healthier vegetarian, though. not just live on bread, cheese, and sugar all the time.

i think about changing the world, i just don’t know how to go about it.

i recently found out i’m narcoleptic. i really need to establish better sleeping patterns and give up caffeine.

i’m really good at writing lists instead of doing the things on them.

i am gracefully retarded. i can learn dance routines for the plays i’m in, etc, but it takes a long time. i love dance, and i think it is an amazing way to get in touch with your body and express yourself. i would love to be able to do both.

i’m passionate about what i’m doing right now- getting a degree in vocal music performance. but for some reason i’m not satisfied with where it will take me. i want to perform opera, but i don’t know if i’m good enough to depend on it as a career. i don’t want to teach, and that is the only other thing i can do with my chosen career path. i mean, i don’t mind teaching voice lessons, but shouldn’t i be doing something i can’t live without? i’m thinking about going to beauty school, because i really like makeup artistry and hair dying. i like a lot of things, but i just don’t know what is worth exploring.