aliise

♥ thankful for this challenge. it is like a cha-cha-cha-challenge. easy if your heart knows the steps, scary if it has no rhythm. lately i have to squeeze my heart like a tiny hard lemon to get these five drops of ambrosia. definitely a sign that i am living under a thunderstorm of feelings that guide me to deserts, not to a small cosy french cafe offering deserts.
la creme brulee. thankful for noticing that i have never meet the root of my emotional disequilibrium and taking up a quest to locate its origin.
♥ thankful for the quote i found earlier this week. it says: some people look for a beautiful place. others make a place beautiful. my mantra of gratitude. stop needing, start sharing.
♥ cowberry jam my uncle made for me this summer. on a pancake. with a friend. this morning.
♥ modesty. as a keyword.
♥ strength. as a goal.

i truly feel this way.
it is a book.
page one.

herbal tea with honey,
after a long ride back home
from the sea, little snowflakes
and a big party.
sore throat,
strong conviction to start
writing beautiful poetry daily.
off to work now,
but poetry shall be around.
i am sure.

♥ promise #356: Cast your burden on Me and I will look after you. i am plotting about trusting the One with the widest shoulders and the warmest hands. cautious trust is probably still better than a clogged suspicion. thankful for His patience.
♥ i am relieved that i finally decided to verbalise my feelings and add “beat my depression” goal. someone had to do that. and beating my depressions sounds like something that could actually turn into a fun battle. medieval kind. swords and shields.
♥ thankful for my mum. she smiles, my loneliness disappears like smoke.
♥ thankful that i can dream of all the stuff i would like to wear at the new-years-party and not buy it. i love the “look at me inventing new styles” part of the fashion neurosis.
♥ thankful that i am again almost ready to think seriously about being in a relationship. who knew?