I'm doing 43 things
i do not know.
i don’t think it’s normal for me to cry every second day or so.
judging from what my friends say in their myspace quizes, nobody says they more than once a month.
so i guess my question is, is it normal to cry 3 or 4 times a week??
ally_cat_85's Life List
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1. be bisexual
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2. stop crying so much
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3. stop being socially retarded
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4. just kiss him!
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5. tell my family that i love them
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6. compile the soundtrack to my life
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7. control myself
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8. be more self diciplined
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9. stop staying up late
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10. develop a backbone
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11. develop more empathy
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12. sing like missy higgins
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13. be a good person
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14. get a boyfriend!
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15. Like someone who likes me back
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16. Kiss in the rain
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17. hold hands
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18. stop gossiping
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19. to love and be loved
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20. be assertive
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21. tell him that i like him
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22. be nice to assholes
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23. be loved
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24. ban myself from myspace
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25. be less weird
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26. eat less bacon
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27. tell my friends how much they mean to me
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28. finish my article
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29. control my anger
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30. get my zing back
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31. be less selfish
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32. go on a myspace strike
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33. stop being a selfish little twat
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34. be less up myself
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35. beat my myspace addiction
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36. stop myspacing
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37. take less photos
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38. date someone with an Irish accent
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39. be more sincere
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40. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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41. wake up when my alarm clock goes off
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42. be less conceited
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43. stop procrastinating
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Recent entries
sometimes i feel so alone, relationship wise. i’m 21 and never had a boyfriend. sure, there’s been people who’ve ‘liked’ me, but i’ve never liked them back ‘like that’. and it seems as thought everyone i actually ‘like’, doesn’t like me back ‘like that’
is this bad karma or something??
why is it that all the guys i like only want to be friends? and why does this ALWAYS happen to me. in fact, it happened to me less than an hour ago. i’m so upset right now bcoz i’ve like this guy for MONTHS and it was SUCH a let down.
he has no idea how disappointed i am… to his face, i smiled and took it as a pinch of salt when he said he ‘wasn’t ready for a relationship and just wanted to be friends’… he has no idea that as soon as i got home, i bawled my eyes out.. not just because of tonight.. it’s because that feeling of being CONSTANTLY REJECTED by ppl i like, really hit home.
and i don’t want to bother my friends with my woes.. i’m sure they wouldn’t be able to fully relate to how i feel anyway, as they’ve been in relationships since they were in their teens. in fact, they’re probably all out with their significant other right now.
hence i am here, typing a rambling entry that no one will probably ever read.
sometimes i just feel so damn alone.
i feel SO sad sometimes.
all my friends and cousins have been/are in a relationship.
i feel like the last kitten in the pet store, the one with the defect that ppl think are ‘cute’ but would never actually wanna take home and love.
sorry for my ramblings.. i’m just so upset right now and writing is my means of ventilation.
“And at the moment its so hard to find a decent guy who actually want a relationship”
...to this, i couldn’t agree more.
good luck to you guys, i hope you’re having better luck then me.
i guess, at the end of the day i’m happy to have loving friends and family. not to mention my beautiful cats. and i guess without a relationship in my life, it gives me more time to focus on my goal to become a journalist.
life is too short to be bitter.
please please please…. just someone delete my profile already.
i have NO self control when it comes to myspace… none.
and i am WAY addicted to seeing that mesmerizingly delicious blue writing that reads ‘new comments’ and the red ‘new messages’ things.
aaahhh…. advice to break the habbit?? anyone?? ....tom?
