almondine

is back. sad. not so well but I understand the waves



I'm doing 6 things
 
Recent entries
stay sober today (read all 5 entries…)
sunday night

well the plan is to go to an aa meeting at six thirty in the morning. I am working on the theory that if you keep doing the same things you will get the same results so I am trying something different…



meditate for ten minutes (read all 2 entries…)
monday

yes, completed.



stay sober today (read all 5 entries…)
still thursday

hate myself, my life. what the hell is it all about? is this it? I am so sick of being grateful for my health, my life. fuck that. alone,noplan, feels futureless okay – here it is. just turned 49. never had a boyfriend. spent years, YEARS, dealing with incest. but now what. there is no answer, no winning, no prize. nothing. nothing. absolutely nothing. just mundanity and then death. is this really it. is there anyone out there who can tell me otherwise?



See all entries ...


 

I want to:
43 Things Login