aloneinaus

I’ve decided i dont ever think i will make her proud because i have come to the realisation that I myself can not make her happy because the only time she can become happy is when she is around men… at this point in time one particular man.

she told me today, i will never measure up to his standards, in all honesty and with no disrespect i dont have to live up to his standards, he is not my father, nor any relation.

So i have come to realise i cannot make my mother proud as it is just impossible… because im not the person she wants to make her proud.