amaleigh

Picture of Dorian Gray, even though i have already read it. I want to try to finish it in one week.

so far ive been good. tons of vegetables today. no soft drinks. im supposed to be resting for a few days so working out is out of the question. i need to drink alot of water.

:( i have the worse self control out of anyone in the world though :( i know what im supposed to do, and i do that until i just give in and start binge eating..i cant even last one day usually :(

i was craving icecream but instead i got a bad of carrots out of the fridge and here i am…binging on carrrots!

i just hope i can do this. i cant even fit into my jeans anymore, i want to be a size 4 or less..and im starting to get too big for my 5/6- the other day i came home and my top button was undone on my pants and my boyfriend was like..hah..why is that not buttoned, and i was like :( i cant fit into them..hehehe..NEEED to fit into my cute small jeans soon.

but lets face it
that isnt going to happen

start by: reviewing recipes

Neeeed to drink 64-100 oz per day.

i keep failing myself.

if this means carrying a dictionary with me at all times.

enough with getting ready in 15 minutes

no more wearing my boyfriends oversized clothes every night

need sexy attire

need sexy makeup tricks

need a sexy attitude :)

its my favorite time of year

the leaves are changing between the most beautiful orange, yellow and reddish shades, the wind just swirls them around and around..and although the bitter cold is beginning im exicted, i think this will be a nice winter.

i just gots to get some white strips dude

NO SOFT DRINKS

that you can only depend on yourself
by achieving my goals, i think it would help me naturally be more independent..lets hope for that.

I WANT TO FIND A REALLY REALLY GOOD ONE!
Someone who wont forget about me in 3 weeks and that will send me wonderful packages all the time and i can send them wonderful packages all the time..someone i can tell all my secrets to…it would be a really lovely relationship:)

How can i find one?

Until then i will start stretching and doing some yoga and pilate tapes that i have..

but soon i want to take 1 class a week-9am on monday mornings. (a nice start to my week i would say)

Browsing magazines to get ideas.

Get images in my head.

Take it step by step..One project a weekend atleast.

1.) Make several CD’S (starting tonight)
2.) Take some polaroids for her
3.) Book? Other?
4.) Be Creative.

maybe 15 is a bit too much, but 10 is definately needed.

STOP DRINKING FUCKING SOFT DRINKS!
SENSIBLE DIET!
WORKOUT!

I NEEEEEED SOMEONE WHO IS RELIABLE THAT WILL KEEP ME IN CHECK :)

i have about 430489340938 journals that i have kept since i was around 14..but i stopped a couple of years ago..

BUY JOURNAL

by december

pass classes

I always thought i wanted to learn french, but maybe before learning i might should do some research in which would be the most useful to know..

I REALLY WANT TO ACCOMPLISH THIS GOAL THOUGH.

Maybe take some classes in january.

BUY the green tea
learn to like the taste of green tea

right after i get off of the medicine im on..

tanning beds are so bad though :(

but i feel soooo much better with tanned skin :)