It’s funny – after only days of posting my last entry, I was forgiven, at least by the most important person anyway. But at what moral and personal cost? I can rest easy now, knowing that I have been forgiven for the hurt I caused, by the accusations about my character were unjust and have not been taken back. Although I sleep easy, I feel that’s because part of me is dead. I hope it can be rejuvenated.
amanda1990's Life List
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1. become emotionally independent
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2. Only go on Facebook once a day
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3. get a flat stomach
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4. learn how to play an instrument
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5. graduate college
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6. say what i mean and mean what i say
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7. find a career
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8. Read The Perks of Being a Wallflower
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9. Make others happy without using material things
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10. Dance in the rain
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11. be carefree
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12. date him
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13. Meet Paul McCartney
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14. be famous
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15. learn piano
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16. learn to sing
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17. learn to play bass guitar
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18. learn guitar
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19. Find my best friend, then marry him
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20. control my anger
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21. expand my vocabulary
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22. learn to drive
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23. write a brilliant poem
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24. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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25. Fix my teeth
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26. be more confident
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27. Learn Spanish
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28. write a book
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29. jungle swing (cairns)
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30. study abroad in spain
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31. grow my hair to the middle of my back
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32. never smoke
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33. read "Cat's Cradle"
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34. avoid high fructose corn syrup
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35. learn Mandarin
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36. have clear skin
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37. learn arabic
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38. know who I am
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39. stop biting my cuticles
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40. learn to skank
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41. Lose 20 pounds
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How I did it: Don't worry about defending yourself. You may have to make some moral sacrifices to do this. Sometimes you have to realize that it's more important to repair the immediate hurt you may have caused than standby any dogmas you might have. This is a difficult choice that YOU have to make, but if you really love the person it's worth it.The most important thing is to realize you upset someone or offended them, understand why… Read how I did it…
I made a terrible mistake. We spent every day together for so long. We have jokes that no one but us will ever understand. I love you more than anyone I’ve ever known. Except for obvious reasons I could have married you, and you knew that. Even if you do forgive me, I know that our friendship is changed forever. We will never be as good of friends again, but I will always love you. The worst part is I have to go through the next three years seeing you all of the time. I didn’t want our first year of college to end like this.
