amazingretchen

i didn’t not bite my nails all day yesterday.

i got a manicure on sunday so that i would be mindful this week of when i put them in my mouth.

hopefully this will help me to not bite them this whole week.

this has been going really well. he seems to love to spend time with me and loves when i call him to make plans and set aside time just for him. i benefit from it as well… he just fills my life with so much happiness.

ninety one: that katie & levi are here.

ninety two: watching corinne and ryan get married.

ninety three: roadtrips.

ninety four: the hot waiter we had at long boards.

ninety five: santa barbara.

ninety six: mint mojito orbitz gum.

ninety seven: my grey blanket with my name on it.

nintey eight: my post it calendar.

nintey nine: bagels with cream cheese.

one hundred: when someone tells me they love me.

because i love to receive compliments and sure others do as well.

last week wasn’t good. but this week i’ve walked more and further. yay!

eighty one: laying on the couch with jordan laughing.

eighty two: tank tops.

eighty three: i get to take an entire week off next month.

eighty four: the beach.

eighty five: wintergreen tic tacs.

eighty six: australia.

eighty seven: that summer is upon us.

eighty eight: that i stayed motivated enough to lose ten pounds.

eighty nine: plucking my eyebrows.

ninety: pedicures.

i got on the scale tonight and i lost exactly ten pounds!

yay! i’m so excited.

ps. jeanette—i had to go online to figure out what in the world was going on with scale. :)

seventy four: having a secret that only i know about.

seventy five: paint a place.

seventy six: hot chocolate with mini marshmallows.

seventy seven: cheez-its.

seventy eight: not just thinking about walking, but actually doing it.

seventy nine: good parking spots.

eighty: discovering the tegan and sara cd.

i went to a bridal shower yesterday and it was terrible. i hate talking to people. i didn’t even really try.

seventy: tall nonfat no whip easy foam cinnamon dolce lattes.

seventy one: wheat toast with just butter.

seventy two: hot summer nights.

seventy three: when you hear a song for the first time and it relates right to where you’re at in your life.

my eating has been doing good. i’ve been too busy to think about it and have just been eating little meals here and there all week.

i have only walked once this week so far due to the weather and not feeling good. but i’m going to try to walk tonight, friday and saturday morning. i know it’s the exercise that makes the difference.

after i get the first ten off… i’m going to try to lose five more pounds before i go to illinois on april 14. maybe ten… but i don’t really want to stress myself out about it. going will be stressful enough.

sixty five: closure.

sixty six: pretzels.

sixty seven: the amazing support my friends give me.

sixty eight: knowing that i’m being disciplined with my eating.

sixty nine: payday.

i lost 5.6 pounds this week.

i was really suprised this morning when i got on the scale.

yay!

breakfast: cottage cheese.

snack: fruit.

lunch: lean cuisine.

snack: pria bar or vegetable/fruit.

dinner: small portions. (no bread… no bread… no bread.)

four bottles of water a day.
one cup of coffee with fat free creamer.
one diet coke.

no eating after eight pm.
no eating after eight pm.
no eating after eight pm.

walk three to four times.
sunday/wednesday/thursday/saturday.

i’m refusing to weigh myself. i think i’m going to hold out a few more days because if i do and i don’t see any results, i’ll be discouraged and probably be less determined.

my jeans were less tight today. i didn’t wear them all week because last saturday they were so tight i almost couldn’t bear to wear them. but today they were really comfortable—hopefully, that is not due to me stretching them out but due to the fact that i lost a few pounds this week.

i ate pretty good this week and i walked three times. i was able to pretty much stay on track. i did eat a twinkie yesterday… but it was because someone purchased them for me and i had to. i was proud though cause they bought me three… and i ate only one.

i worked it out to so i could go with them after i hung out with my brother. it was good to just be there and it gave me some time to evaluate sort of where i am at right now with things.

they didn’t realize that i wanted to go and just sort of gently invited me to go with them after we went to dinner. i didn’t feel any pressure—which is good and unusual.

and i don’t know why i never did it before. i feel so much lately like it’s important to spend more time with him. i have so much fun when i do and i really want him to know how much i love him and will be there for him whenever he needs anything.

and today we did something so simple and he was so excited to hang out with me. and he talked to me a lot and asked me all kinds of questions and it was so great to just be by myself with him.

he already decided he wants to go see the teenage mutant ninja turtles as our next outing. :)

tomorrow i’m taking my brother to the movies. i need to sepnd time with him even if i have to go out of my way to do it—it’s so important. and i love that kid more than anything else in the world and i need to do whatever it takes to show him that.

sixty: that beth bought me twinkies.

sixty one: buying new cd’s.

sixty two: blue cheese dressing.

sixty three: when someone makes me feel pretty.

sixty four: that jessica found a wedding dress.

yay!