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I’ve been crushing on my guy friend for at least 6 months and for a while, I thought he liked me that way…now, I’m not so sure. I’m certain I’d end up looking like a fool if I told him my feelings (and possibly damage a friendship in the process…)

I’m surprised few people out there have this goal.

I’ve just recently decided to take the plunge and invite people not normally in my social circle to a party. I was a nervous wreck choosing who to invite but people who I never would have considered inviting before seem excited about the event. Now I’m excited and I’m just thinking that this is a great way to spend time with people I normally wouldn’t spend time with or just to get to know accquaintances better.

..do I really want to get over him? If I really dug deep, I’d most likely say “no”.

I actually got to spend about an hour or so with my crush with a group of other guys not so long ago. I don’t know what it is with crushes but even with their faults, you still like them. My crush wouldn’t stop talking about other girls (making it really awkward for me since I was the only girl at the table). Most people would call this guy self-absorbed but for some reason, I think he might just be pushing too hard to impress everyone..maybe he’s insecure himself? Fortunately, other girls wasn’t the only thing we talked about.

Even with the half one-sided conversations, I still felt extremely happy after having spent months not speaking to each other. We finally had a long conversation. But then, what is up with people who ignore each other the next time they see each other…after having just talked to each other for a good length of time mere days or weeks ago? Maybe I just need to take more initiative and keep talking to him instead of waiting for him to come talk to me.