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Starting over, again!

It’s been two days since I’ve read poetry and meditated in the morning. I’m starting over.

http://running.about.com/od/getstartedwithrunning/ht/getstarted.htm

Day 1

I bought my second 5 lb weight yesterday so that the strength training would be easier. I had purchased only one about a month ago so that I wouldn’t have wasted money in the unlikely event that I decided not to continue with strength training. It was okay working with one weight, but having one in each arm was, by far, a much better experience.

The workout felt really great. The walk was invigorating. The exercises were challenging, but I didn’t feel tortured (as I always feared!). My muscles hurt towards the end of each set, sometimes in the middle. I learned that pausing and breathing for a while, then continuing until I finish the set works really well. I feel great now and can’t wait until Monday to do the sets again.

I already feel more energetic, light, and alive.

The Meditation podcast has been useful for this goal. I’ve meditated twice at night, but I want to begin my mornings with it now.

I’ve already kissed two people, but those kisses were silly and not meaningful to me. I look forward to a real “first kiss” experience.

I’ll try again.

oh baby.

The quote is on my wall. I’m going to live the week in full acceptance of uncertainty, and in full openness to all of its possibilities. An entry on this venture will follow, next Sunday (perhaps daily, who knows?). Stay tuned.

I love my Lourdes family.
I’ve spent the past half year doing this.
I’m good; it’s a habit now. :)

I’ll list them

1. Wide Awake
2. Arty’s words that followed
3. Tears.
4. Visited the Art room pre-stat test.
5. Took my last stat test EVER.
6. Visited the Art room post-stat test!
7. Painted the walls to Absolutely (Story of a Girl)
8. Realized how much I love the art kids.
9. Wrote on the stat room wall. (note from an ‘08 SENIOR)
10. Learned I got an 87 on the stat test(!)
11. Skipped lunch to paint the walls, just like a starving artist.
12. Finished watching art school confidential
13. Learned about Viola
14. Talked to Muna <3
15. Ferichita with Laura and her mom
16. SMILE.

I lost the card in the midst of this busy city, but found it, miraculously in a parking lot. Crazy strange.

Also, I was reading Walden, and Arty was reading a book—ahh I forgot the name!—that had a Thoreau quote in it!

we got soul connections, him and I.

anyone who really cares will do.
that’s all gone
“Gone… like frank sinatra, like elvis and his mom… like al pacino’s cash, nothing lasts in this life” (-jon foreman)

I’ll be one
through my words and actions
everyday.

AMAZING!
I almost cried
but it was really a happy talk
And renewal was FANTABULOUS!
we are essentially good
and encounter was like heaven
can’t wait for the real thing!
i love all of those girls like they can’t understand.

This will happen tomorrow at about 2:15 <3

everytime I hug vicky and arty it’s wonderful.
they are the best huggers on the planet.
speshully when vicky says hey cutie just before
and since arty isn’t a big hugger
:)

Will document all of the wonderful hugs I’ll get at renewal tomorrow!

If you have the courage to do what you want (fuck the rest), and to do it well, in a sense of full love for it, passionately and relentlessly, you will succeed, even if it is only on your own terms. Make the right choices for yourself and stick it through, even in the face of harsh consequences. If you worked with integrity, no failure will ever have the power to drag you down. NO REGRETS. You’re bigger than your body gives you credit for.

(thanks johnny mayer, for the inspiration)
;)

It was playing while I hugged my dad yesterday.
“Everything is alright.”

It’s going to happen :)
And then in College! woot toot.